I told my therapist, "I feel safest when I do everything alone." She didn't even ask why. She just said:
"That's not independence. That's grief." And I swear, I felt something in me break open. Because it is grief, isn't it? Grief for every time you asked for help and no one showed up. Grief for being the child who had to hold it all together while everyone else fell apart. Grief for realizing, way too young, that no one was ever really coming to save you. You didn't choose to be strong you had to be. Because breaking wasn't safe. Crying didn't change anything. And needing people only led to disappointment, guilt, or punishment. So you grew up over-prepared. You move through life with backup plans for your backup plans. You, double check doors, messages, emotions-everything. You carry the weight of "I'll handle it" even when you're breaking inside. People call you "independent," but they don't see the version of you who secretly wants to collapse in someone's arms and actually be caught this time.
i had a 6th anniversary party for my podcast on Saturday. I sent out invites. If you're reading this, it's too late. Maybe next year.
Ep.203 - IYRTITL with The War Room Family
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MUSIC IN THE WAR ROOM 3
5 songs by yours truly
Featuring OBG Tradgety, Nichole Lee & Cody Bank$
Produced by Rob Lucci, Lung$ & Blanco
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NEW MUSIC 🎉⚔️🎊🎶🎶
My Type of Beat 🎵🎼🎶
Yours Truly
Nichole-Lee
Cody Bank$
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