Surround yourself with people who are better than you, people who don't undermine you but respect you and treat you the same way you treat them. That's growth.
I pay college fees with the money I make from braiding hair, a month I need atleast 5 clients to book me then I know that I am sorted in terms of fees.
One day the things that you struggle with will come so easily for you, and you will look back and pay gratitude to all the work that you have put into your healing and growth.