Captain

Running experiments for an extraordinarily good life. Open journal.

[Aaron @anesmithbeck]

this is it, we're in adulthood, the arena is the world, no one's going to do it for us, this isn't a practice run for the real thing, you already know what you have to do, go do it

[Captain @CptExperiment]

1. Anger release
2. Being my authentic self
3. Receiving & gratefulness

[Captain @CptExperiment]

I clearly need to do an anger release version of this

[Joe Hudson @FU_joehudson]

Back when I was in my twenties, I came across a picture of me when I was crying as a little kid.

My parents had been taught to feel uncomfortable about the emotions I was having. So to feel less uncomfortable, they would tease me.

It was quite an image: You could see the dumbfounded expression on my face. I couldn’t believe my parents had the camera out.

I realized then: “That must be why I haven’t cried in nearly fourteen years...”

After I saw that picture, I put it on my desk, and told myself: “I’m going to learn how to cry again.”

A whole year went by of that picture sitting on my desk… but I still hadn’t figured out how to cry. I just couldn’t get the tears to come.

So I decided to try something different. I went out into the woods to a faraway trail where no one could see or hear me (that’s how much shame I had around it) and I started fake crying.

I did that for about three months, just faking it. Until all of a sudden, it started to actually happen: I began to cry.

It was one of the biggest reliefs of my life.

My body let go of years of tension in just days. I just let myself cry for nearly four days straight — while I was brushing my teeth, while I was eating lunch, whatever I was doing.

The most beautiful part I discovered was that underneath all that sadness was a deep, persistent joy and a deeper capacity to feel and love.

[Captain @CptExperiment]

Surprise surprise - underneath the immense grief, there's joy. And it's even more annihilating than grief. Harder to bear.

[Captain @CptExperiment]

Running a 2-4x/day emotional inquiry experiment & tracking it closely. Feels like cleaning up a hoarder house sometimes. Always surprising. Learning so much about myself.

[Captain @CptExperiment]

@FU_joehudson The famous photo. Wow ❤️

[Sahra @sahra_bn]

truth, love, and experimentation

[Captain @CptExperiment]

@DiamonDie @DefenderOfBasic How do you actually heal/come out of dissociation?

[Captain @CptExperiment]

@daemonhugger hey man i'd love to do a money mapping session, can i pay with crypto?

[Captain @CptExperiment]

@chrislakin Explaining your full method from A to Z in a single tell-all guide will not only put you on the map as a legend, but also will bring WAY more attention and clients to you, counterintuitively.

[Captain @CptExperiment]

@AmirLaylaz You can't simply work on that list one by one (fix eyesight, release chest, don't tilt the head..) and then expect to be healed, right? All of them are downstream from a single thing.. and what that thing really is? What is the key to work on that thing?

[Captain @CptExperiment]

A guy I knew - never read a book, just studied whatever was thrown at him, etc and no real interest in the "deeper" side of life, let alone having insights.. became a psychiatrist/therapist and that was a mini red pilling moment.

THIS guy will go out & "help" you heal? Ooh..

[Captain @CptExperiment]

@chrislakin Seems to me that coaches/therapists, whatever.. all lost track of the real thing: Healing people, helping them unfold/improve.. Ask a therapist directly and they'll tighten up and change the topic before using the word "heal". Most are doing this to earn a living, sadly that's it

[Captain @CptExperiment]

@AmirLaylaz Great add here, thank you. Feldenkreis is so interesting, getting the book now.

[Captain @CptExperiment]

I wonder if anyone experimented with acupuncture and "getting answers" from the unconscious.

Like, if you could help a person arrive at emotional alignment, clarity, with a specific intention. They'd feel chaotic or unclear, after acupuncture things would resolve?

Sounds doable

[Captain @CptExperiment]

Can't let the mind evaluate and re-decide again and again

[Captain @CptExperiment]

Listen to the heart to decide what and use the intellect to plan how to get there.

[Captain @CptExperiment]

@smiling_for_fun Yes please! Very excited for it

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@daemonhugger Interested in this - happy to pay, this is very interesting work the world needs more (and certainly I do!). Can't DM since I'm not premium here.

[Captain @CptExperiment]

Ngl sometimes TCM feels like a mixed bag of symptoms and explanations, kinda like astrology. Anything can mean anything and so on. Probably because I'm not well versed in it but still.

[Captain @CptExperiment]

Doing some inner work, on intensity and fear, regarding stepping into a new life, letting my self unfold.

And my hands started to shake a little - especially my left hand ring finger.

Asked ChatGPT about it from TCM and meridians perspective.. it fits SO well, I'm surprised!

[Captain @CptExperiment]

I've previously talked to ChatGPT about it, so there's some chance it's feeding me back the same stuff but wtf? This fits perfectly, almost exactly what I felt and focused on. Made me feel so assured and whole in a weird way. The body is the mind.