Crow

| 25 | He/Him | Fin/Eng |
@juketeus alt account/alter ego for yapping or vent

[Crow @CrowLoafin]

I have gotten better night sleep but my memory issues are still not gone. I can't remember things I have said or other people have told me. I will see a professional this week and hope I get some help with this.

[Crow @CrowLoafin]

Memory issues are back. But atleast this time I remembered the important thing I need to do in few days. If I forget it again after this I'm gonna be mad.

[Crow @CrowLoafin]

I would want to draw some of my other fav ships too sometimes. But also kinda no, because I'm multishipper and know it would piss off some people for sure.

[Crow @CrowLoafin]

I hate how my mental health problems literally take away my ability to draw or do anything I care about. Like please give my back my skills, I need them 💀

[Crow @CrowLoafin]

I force my duo to be Hollowhunter with me in cryptid notes. I need to ask if we could take an actual photoshoots at some point, because what is this?

[Crow @CrowLoafin]

Took some #fredmare pics with my partner today ♡

[Crow @CrowLoafin]

I actually question so much what I do while sleeping. Deleting some of my posts here on twt. Being online randomly even tho I don't remember it myself (my partner told me about it), speaking random stuff in my sleep and screaming or something??

[Crow @CrowLoafin]

I have so many ideas what I want to draw or do. But so little energy to get anything actually done.

[Crow @CrowLoafin]

Okay I'm fine now, sorry for having a moment of weakness a while ago. Idk what that was.

[Crow @CrowLoafin]

I hate my art. I hate myself. Why do I feel so bad? There is something very wrong, but I don't know what or why. I'm either very happy or very sad and it changes all the time and I cannot keep up even myself. I'm so tired.

[Crow @CrowLoafin]

I was supposed to have a visit at a mental health clinic today, but they canceled my appointment. My anxiety was happy about that, but my other issues remains unresolved so that's fun. Anyways have a picture of a seagull and soap bubbles 🫧

[Crow @CrowLoafin]

@memory1869347 Haha yeah. I guess tiny birds are like chinchillas and likes to take sand baths ✨️

[Crow @CrowLoafin]

I went yesterday to the capital city and saw a lot of birds 🐦‍⬛

[Crow @CrowLoafin]

@memory1869347 I saw tiny birds bathing in the sand too, but didn't take picture of them 🐤

[Crow @CrowLoafin]

I hate feeling like any idea I have for drawing or anything else would be better if it was made by someone else than me. I feel like I have always needed to try harder than most others to be even some good at things I do. And it's still not good enough.

[Crow @CrowLoafin]

It has been so cold my cat has learned himself how to go under blanket. Before he would always need to be ask someone to tuck him in 🥺

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@dragontissm Probably! Idv knew I would be too good so they gave me ping issues 💔

[Crow @CrowLoafin]

Uhhm?? This was not on purpose really. I have been just ranking on my alt account and the Nightmare badge was only one I was really trying hard to keep.

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@dragontissm Thank youu! I will try to relax now a bit with rank. My ping is still very bad even on my "better ping" account

[Crow @CrowLoafin]

I don't think my main is getting out of shadowbanned in a while. And my wrist is hurting a lot again after one drawing.