‧₊˚ Rosè failed Recovery˚₊ ‧

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[‧₊˚ Rosè failed Recovery˚₊ ‧ @CupidsDolls]

i failed… i dont want to be better. i want to starve more now…

[‧₊˚ Rosè failed Recovery˚₊ ‧ @CupidsDolls]

i fr tried recovery and was doing well then stopped working out and kept binging

[‧₊˚ Rosè failed Recovery˚₊ ‧ @CupidsDolls]

when i get some shit figured out and come back, ill be better than ever xoxo

[‧₊˚ Rosè failed Recovery˚₊ ‧ @CupidsDolls]

meal prep is so easy just get whatever drink and a piece of gum for afterwards

[‧₊˚ Rosè failed Recovery˚₊ ‧ @CupidsDolls]

so my fridge / freezer broke so a lot of food spoiled and tbh if that isnt a good excuse to starve idk what is

[‧₊˚ Rosè failed Recovery˚₊ ‧ @CupidsDolls]

i love bread so much why does it have so many calories

[‧₊˚ Rosè failed Recovery˚₊ ‧ @CupidsDolls]

@Alaskasalaskas tysm, ive been considering it but idk :/

[‧₊˚ Rosè failed Recovery˚₊ ‧ @CupidsDolls]

i hate how much my bf makes me cry …

[‧₊˚ Rosè failed Recovery˚₊ ‧ @CupidsDolls]

@cigs4twigs tysm for all the kind words still

[‧₊˚ Rosè failed Recovery˚₊ ‧ @CupidsDolls]

i failed… i dont want to be better. i want to starve more now…

[‧₊˚ Rosè failed Recovery˚₊ ‧ @CupidsDolls]

@cigs4twigs i just wish i could be sober for a day without him making me cry

[‧₊˚ Rosè failed Recovery˚₊ ‧ @CupidsDolls]

@psychedelicsk1n that means a lot thank you lol. but no id prefer him alive

[‧₊˚ Rosè failed Recovery˚₊ ‧ @CupidsDolls]

hearing my bf make jokes and laugh while gaming with his friends and im crying in the back hurts so much

it hasnt even been a day and i dont want recovery anymore

[‧₊˚ Rosè failed Recovery˚₊ ‧ @CupidsDolls]

@umii_111 thats very sweet of you, but the hex could rub off on me because how close we always are. Plus I put up protections for both of us, Id prefer if you didnt but thank you for all your support

[‧₊˚ Rosè failed Recovery˚₊ ‧ @CupidsDolls]

after all my emotions and shit, on top of horrible cramping. i just wanted my bf to be here for me.
but the day i decided i wanted to recover he had a shitty reaction, then decided to play with his friends all night…

sometimes i think i genuinely dont deserve recovery

[‧₊˚ Rosè failed Recovery˚₊ ‧ @CupidsDolls]

all the support i got from everyone about recovering honestly has brought me to tears multiple times today.

its so sad to say but a lot of the edtwt has been so kind and sweet even when my own bf failed to do so.

it genuinely means so much. im so thankful and i know its sad

[‧₊˚ Rosè failed Recovery˚₊ ‧ @CupidsDolls]

@stonarexic it means a lot you care that much

[‧₊˚ Rosè failed Recovery˚₊ ‧ @CupidsDolls]

tbh my bfs reaction to me wanting to recover makes me want to starve more and more

[‧₊˚ Rosè failed Recovery˚₊ ‧ @CupidsDolls]

@valliisill no youre fine, tysm for believing in me when my bf doesnt seem to. it means a lot getting all these comments and comments like yours is making me rethink my relationship tbh. i already was questioning my sexuality and tht ontop of his reaction is a lot

[‧₊˚ Rosè failed Recovery˚₊ ‧ @CupidsDolls]

@loui5133 thank you that made me cry lol

[‧₊˚ Rosè failed Recovery˚₊ ‧ @CupidsDolls]

just told my bf abt how i want to recover and how i needed his help this past year.. he just said but i have been telling you to eat and stuff. which he rarely does. and he seems mad. he said that before im proud of you or something. im crying sm.