I’m sitting in my nana’s living room surrounded by all of these sweet looking lladró dolls & all I can think about is the slutty outfits I’m going to wear next weekend to leather fiesta.
It made see that I only want to spend time with people (romantic or otherwise) who are able to challenge me in a real way & who make my life more rich & interesting.
I was “dating” someone for the last 2 months & it ended yesterday. I wasn’t into him, but thought he was cute, so I kept trying to make it work. I also kept trying to make it work because I got in my head that I’ll always be the poly girl with only 1 long term partner.
Even if that is me & that’s what I am, I am still poly. I was so upset at myself for waiting around for him to get better because of some weird fear I have. But it was a good experience for me.
Since moving into my house back in June I’ve hosted a few things, but last night was the first time I got to host a Jewish holiday there & it was amazing. All these people who love me for me showed up to celebrate & I am so thankful for that.