I’ve never been able to fully trust or depend on people ever since my dad tried to kill me when I was 9 with a hammer next to my head and poison on the table. I’m not scared to die cause I was supposed to be a long time ago. But god gave me another opportunity I guess.
I forgave my parents but I can’t block out the trauma they put me through. Been fucking with me heavily ever since I had my child. Also, I’m not good at receiving affections from others cause I felt like everyone hated me growing up. 😪