Farah

welcome to the inner workings of my mind🧟‍♀️

[Farah @DarkTrance_]

اللَّهُم إِنِّي أَعُوذُ بِكَ مِنْ شَرِّ مَا عَمِلْتُ وَ شَرِّ مَا لَمْ أَعْمَلْ

[Farah @DarkTrance_]

Screw realism.

[Farah @DarkTrance_]

I hate how my feelings can change overnight. One day everything feels normal, the next I can’t even treat people the same.

[Farah @DarkTrance_]

My my my I keep falllling and i knowwwww it willll backkkkfireeeeeeeee

[Farah @DarkTrance_]

My brain really has a talent for ignoring the obvious, making me believe in possibilities that were never there. Then reality hits and I’m disappointed all over again.

Like, come on… it’s clear. Stop pretending you don’t see it

[Farah @DarkTrance_]

Three times. Same situation. At this point, it’s both amusing and depressing. As if I needed another reason to stay away

[Farah @DarkTrance_]

A whole different person, yet the same feelings. Some things never change

[Farah @DarkTrance_]

Memories don't hurt. Love doesn't hurt. It is the attachment that hurts. It is the expectation that hurts. It is the imagined future that is now broken that hurts.

[Farah @DarkTrance_]

Once again i let my guards down, now all im left with is disappointment, embarrassment and alot of anger. Here we go again.

[Farah @DarkTrance_]

I feel like im going crazy. I dunno what to do

[Farah @DarkTrance_]

Coleridge line “Water, water, everywhere / Nor any drop to drink.”

[Farah @DarkTrance_]

wish there was an off switch for my brain and feelings.

[Farah @DarkTrance_]

i swear my brain is on overdrive lately… back and forth, too loud, too much. i just want a minute of quiet 🫠

[Farah @DarkTrance_]

don’t think people understand what it’s like to deal with the same heavy stuff on repeat. it messes with your head. i’m tired.

[Farah @DarkTrance_]

@JakeRammos Yes, clear and loud

[Farah @DarkTrance_]

I’m so full of sadness it feels physical—like it’s sitting in my chest, heavy and unmoving.

[Blu @bludarawest]

to be patient and to slow down. that it’s ok that you’re not moving at the same pace as everyone cause you’re not meant to. if it’s meant for you, it’ll come if it’s not you won’t receive it. secondly, it’s ok to take time to get your mind together. you can put yourself first and no one can be mad at you for that. if you run across people who don’t value you runnnnnn !!!!

[Farah @DarkTrance_]

I keep giving pieces of myself away like it’s nothing… and then wonder why there’s so little of me left at the end of the day.

[Farah @DarkTrance_]

I feel like my secrets are slipping through my fingers, one by one, and I can’t hold onto them anymore. I don’t even know what to do—maybe there’s nothing to do. Just standing here, watching… staring as it all unfolds.

[Farah @DarkTrance_]

My chest feels heavy, like there’s a weight I can’t lift no matter how hard I try.

[Farah @DarkTrance_]

Am I into you… or just bored enough to confuse the two?

[Farah @DarkTrance_]

I think I’m starting to let go… this feels like too much now.