🌻Storyteller🌻 (She/Her). Thriller/Mystery/Suspense + Crime Fiction. Currently writing a multi-book series (m/m) I hope to publish in 2023.🌈 Open DM. 📩#LGBTQ
Deplete all your energy, get absolutely fucking numb, and then it's like finally, I can breathe again. I'm not being crushed by the weight of all this emotion, and the finality of all these thoughts. Just go there. And stay there. Let it be final. Drain your energy. Then breathe.
When you're depressed you're not supposed to go "there"; there being the absolute lowest you can go, but sometimes you're circling "there" and trying so hard to avoid it that you just feel better giving into THE absolute darkest place you can go and living there for a few hours.
Sometimes I just feel like crying, and crying, and crying... (((sigh))) ...and crying, and crying...and crying. It's amazing how you can cry for hours and not exhaust your tear reserve. #depression
@BazzCargo Yeah, I have to just take a walk or something to let my mind fix the issue. Every now and then, I'm reminded: Writing is hard! Sometimes, some books flow so easily you forget.
I actually feel better when I really restrict my calories, but I'm not sure why.
Mental health wise, I really crash and burn when I eat normal meals.
Never used to happen before. Now it frequently does.
Alright.
I hit a wall while drafting, took a break to outline, and now I have a great big plotted mess before me. 😄
Sounds like it's back to...drafting! 🥳🥳🥳