𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓊/𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓁 🌑🪻🫧

“You see I kept asking myself then: why am I so stupid that if others are stupid—and I know they are—yet I won't be wiser?”

[𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓊/𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓁 🌑🪻🫧 @Deathb0d7]

I don't want to exercise because I feel weak so maybe I should just fast instead

[𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓊/𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓁 🌑🪻🫧 @Deathb0d7]

I don't know why people follow me when I just come onto this account every few weeks to say cryptic and miserable things for the thousandth time before mysteriously leaving once more

[𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓊/𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓁 🌑🪻🫧 @Deathb0d7]

@menamisu You can entirely see her sternum WOW

[𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓊/𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓁 🌑🪻🫧 @Deathb0d7]

Am coming to the realization that my mom and I are trauma bonded but we ball

[𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓊/𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓁 🌑🪻🫧 @Deathb0d7]

I cannot eat or drink anything in the mornings, otherwise I get nauseous. Even with drinking water. It's such a gross feeling.

[𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓊/𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓁 🌑🪻🫧 @Deathb0d7]

I feel like I don't have disordered eating issues like the average person with an ED, and so many people on EDSHTWT are minors so I struggle to find people my age. It lowkey is pushing me towards being inactive.

[𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓊/𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓁 🌑🪻🫧 @Deathb0d7]

Ever since coming back from the psychiatric ward, I've been really worried that my mother had found my blades and took them. I'm nervous to check and haven't yet despite it being three months down later.

[𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓊/𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓁 🌑🪻🫧 @Deathb0d7]

Besides pure fasting, I was considering doing a tea only (with exception of water) fast. I love tea and I only add stevia sugars so it's practically no calories.

[𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓊/𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓁 🌑🪻🫧 @Deathb0d7]

I think I'd like to start fasting again. That was what I was doing during my honeymoon phase a few years back.

[𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓊/𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓁 🌑🪻🫧 @Deathb0d7]

I hope that my thyroid gets bad enough to where I would have to take it out. I would like to lose as many organs as humanly possible.

[𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓊/𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓁 🌑🪻🫧 @Deathb0d7]

Ever since I was a little girl I wanted to get rid of my limbs of flesh and turn it into machinery. Clean and pure.

[𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓊/𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓁 🌑🪻🫧 @Deathb0d7]

I hate it when I see people make more progress than I do. What do you mean you managed to reach BMI 14 and I havent in years.

[𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓊/𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓁 🌑🪻🫧 @Deathb0d7]

@OMGKAWAIII7504 I did ! I started out of boredom at 10, but joined edtwt for the first time with this account when I was 14. Thats literally it 😭😭

[𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓊/𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓁 🌑🪻🫧 @Deathb0d7]

@ppawsized I notice that standing is worse sensation wise because you're actively using your muscles in that position but thats about it :P

[𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓊/𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓁 🌑🪻🫧 @Deathb0d7]

It's funny when people try pitying me or comforting me about my scars not knowing that I've fantasized about doing this and more to my body since when I started at 10 years old. I'm not struggling ! I am quite dedicated towards the cause, actually !!

[𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓊/𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓁 🌑🪻🫧 @Deathb0d7]

@beekalxo It's wishful thinking since I'm literally just starting to show major improvements for my binge eating after over 5 years of it (thank goodness) but I am hoping to lose 10lbs !!

[𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓊/𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓁 🌑🪻🫧 @Deathb0d7]

@luxiicon Medical conditions (including mental conditions) aside, I'd argue that it's because of a lack of knowledge. I've seen many people both online and offline spread health misinformation online in complete sincerity. Not many people are properly informed, thus make poor decisions.

[𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓊/𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓁 🌑🪻🫧 @Deathb0d7]

This super cutieful notebook that I am using for my dieting <3

[𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓊/𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓁 🌑🪻🫧 @Deathb0d7]

@unepetitepomme I enjoy both, but I prefer cashew butter over both of those options. it's just much more expensive compared to standard peanut butter :((

[𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓊/𝒩𝓊𝓁𝓁 🌑🪻🫧 @Deathb0d7]

@nic116013 I think so ! For me, I want my body to be a reflection of what makes me feel best. Being overweight (or even the heavier side of average) always just serves to make me feel gross, even when I see that the people around me (like in my high school n stuff) prefer "thick" women