@alessixriccardo I tried putting it in a jar but blood decomposes and leave a HORRIBLE foul odor. So yeah, preferably do this with something you will keep completely closed and that seals up pretty well
@luizaloveskai Genuinely me, it's a "I can't live without you" but not in the creepy obsessive and manipulative way. Just in a "you're my last thread without knowing and I love you enough to live for as long as you are with me, because for me living it's more unbearable than death" way
And still here I am, questioning if I should even keep breathing because everyone would be better off without me... What am I doing?... Why can't that be enough for it all to stop?... Its so confusing.. I am so scared of hurting him, of failing him and yet here I am...
I feel guilty about al this... I have a wonderful boyfriend, a boyfriend who always tells me he loves me, that I'm good enough, that i deserve his love, that I'm not a burden, that I'm not too much. And still I keep on falling on my self destructive spirals...
He asks me not to cut or harm myself yet when he sees them he doesn't judge me or blame me or get angry at me. He's comprehensive, he hugs me and holds me and simply asks me why it happened and that he's not mad and simply wants to know how to help...