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please unfollow or block if you are recovering from ed or sh.
155cm, sw:43kg
I cant stop eating and i just gain all the weight back. kms

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@internetloser03 Hii i am

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New online friend lowkey fueling my ed tehe <3

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@Duckzfactory Honestly its my ugw soooo

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I keep thinking about sh-ing again. Its all i think about. I cant stop the thoughts.

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@cherubineom Saving for my purpose as a 5ft 1 ½ girlie

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@SuperSecretSif Lately ive been bouncing between 4 and 6

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@fattykals Hiii!

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I lwk just dont want to exist anymore. My mental health is making me neglect myself and my job and people here are worried but I feel fine -mostly. Idk what triggered me. I dont want to deal with this again but I keep slipping. Im so tired

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@fattykals Hii

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People have real problems, im 21 almost 22 and im still thinking this way, still craving the way I used to be but I know I just... cant. It sucks so much. Idk what to do. But I cant stop thinking about it.. Just I want to idk not do it but kind of?? Ugh im so pathetic sometimes

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The other night I was going through my pencil case and I found a blade that i brought when I was 18. I never used it. I want to but im over 2 years clean and my life is lowkey somewhat on track.. why do the urges always come back. Why does my mind always go here. I hate it

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@maudestarves Honestly this was the worst part about when I was fasting. I wouldnt ever feel like I was losing anything. Sometimes just feels like a losing battle. Please stay safe <3

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@maudestarves Hii ive been having more thoughts since being here but havent acted on anything in a while! So im physically recovered. Thank you ♡ I hope you are okay <3

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And the move begins

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I crave it sometimes

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@GeneralAudienc3 @Math_files For us, I learnt that it was 3 times 4 as in the number 3 times 4 times. Aka 3+3+3+3

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And now i am leaving it all behind..

Ugh im so conflicted I hate this..

Maybe im just stressed and tired?

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Im so nervous about moving for the year tomorrow morning.. its crazy to think that the majority of my problems have come from being in this place I call a "home" and now.. now im just.. leaving? Like im free..? Its so weird and I kind of wish I wasnt at this point in my life

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And what if im not good at this job? What if they realise I kind of suck and I take longer to understand tasks and to do things.. what if I dont make new friends and im alone for the whole year, just miserable and, in a way, stuck?

Also my cat.. I already have lost 2 of them,