I yearn to be back in Chicago obv, but these past few weeks have allowed to experience moments of genuine happiness that I haven’t felt in so long?Ironically enough, being suicidal for 4 months isn’t an ideal scenario! so I’m glad to be glad, and that’s enough for me now :).
might film a YouTube video tomorrow?? who knows, I just have so many thoughts and I think the only way to fight depression is through some form of expression. don’t really have any other form available sooooooo
like am I happy that I moved when I did? Absolutely. Did my mental health progressively plummet to the point that I’m not sure if I’ll ever fully recover as soon as I did move? Also true!
me when I can’t tell whether it’s the lack of meds, moving to a big city post college town, fascist government takeover, lack of food, broken computer, financial insecurity, being sick for 2 months, or a lack of a creative outlet that has totally wrecked my mental health
me when I can’t tell whether it’s the lack of meds, moving to a big city post college town, fascist government takeover, lack of food, broken computer, financial insecurity, being sick for 2 months, or a lack of a creative outlet that has totally wrecked my mental health