Juan Sp

Female. Stutterer. Consistently Inconsistent, Same Struggle Everyday (Depression& ADHD-I. Former IT/ERP Consultant. Sisyphus. Vagabond. Rough Sleeper. Invisible

[Juan Sp @DisFluent]

Where Are My Words (Mild Stutterer, PWS). Consistently Inconsistent, Same Struggle Everyday (Depression, ADHD-I, Anxiety). Female version of the Greek God Sisyphus. Vagabond;

[Juan Sp @DisFluent]

Spirits | The Strumbellas
https://t.co/g6HzYGET6m
"I don't want a never ending life
I just want to be alive while I'm here And I dont want a never ending life
I just want to be #alive while I'm here

I got guns in my head and they wont go
#Spirits in my head and they wont go"

[Juan Sp @DisFluent]

The encourager in the waiting room was named Ron. He asked me if I needed prayer...I said no.
He sat down & talked to me anyway.

Finally, I told him if I had a choice, I would've chosen to not be born...should've seen the look on his face.
#MyWorld
#TiredOfLife
#Sisyphus
#ImDone

[Juan Sp @DisFluent]

I have 3 fibroids...the biggest one is 2.2cm. 😔😩

The nurse practitioner suggested trying to shrink the fibroids...so she prescribed Progesterone capsules 100mg...if I had health insurance, I'd choose to have them removed. Smh
#MyWorld
#Sisyphus
#MyLemonsDontMakeLemonade

[Juan Sp @DisFluent]

I have 3 fibroids...the biggest one is 2.2cm. 😔😩

The nurse practitioner suggested trying to shrink the fibroids...so she prescribed Progesterone capsules 100mg...if I had health insurance, I'd choose to have them removed. Smh
#MyWorld
#Sisyphus
#MyLemonsDontMakeLemonade

[Juan Sp @DisFluent]

The clinic called earlier. One of their OBGYN Nurse Practitioners has an opening later today...I accepted the appt.
#MyWorld
#MyJourney
#UterineFibroids

[Juan Sp @DisFluent]

The clinic called earlier. One of their OBGYN Nurse Practitioners has an opening later today...I accepted the appt.
#MyWorld
#MyJourney
#UterineFibroids

[Juan Sp @DisFluent]

Clinic called on Monday...I have uterine fibroids AGAIN!! 😩😢😭🤬

I had them in late 2008, they were removed in early 2009...weeks before my COBRA health insurance expired. Now, I don't have health insurance!!

Clinic doesn't have any follow-up appts avail until April.
#MyWorld

[Juan Sp @DisFluent]

The World I Know|Collective Soul
https://t.co/HRF2MhWYnp
"So I walk up on high
And I step to the edge
To see my world below
And I laugh at myself
While the #tears roll down
'Cause its the world I know
Oh its the world I know"

#MyWorld #MyJourney
#ThursdayThoughts
#LifeIsNotFair

[Juan Sp @DisFluent]

https://t.co/6x3ZmXlAtv

Nicholas, U R gone now...but I see/saw U. U turned to alcohol & drugs to cope with mental health issues. The Universe was not kind to you. #RIPNicholas .

Me...I turned to alcohol to deal with mental health issues & a lifelong neurodevelopmental disorder.

[Juan Sp @DisFluent]

@AskCoachKev SEND

[Juan Sp @DisFluent]

Hear Me | Jim Brickman
https://t.co/639ywXbRlx
"Take these tears, put 'em in a bottle
Don't let these tears I cry be in vain
Take these tears, keep them up in #heaven
Water my life with tears like rain

Hear me, hear my words unspoken
Restore my faith in hopin'
Hear me

#MyWorld

[Juan Sp @DisFluent]

Clinic called on Monday...I have uterine fibroids AGAIN!! 😩😢😭🤬

I had them in late 2008, they were removed in early 2009...weeks before my COBRA health insurance expired. Now, I don't have health insurance!!

Clinic doesn't have any follow-up appts avail until April.
#MyWorld

[Juan Sp @DisFluent]

"THE WISH

Into a well, a girl
threw a penny.

What do you wish for?
Asked the well.

I wish for a penny,
said the girl."
- Lang Leav

#Simple #MyWish #MyJourney
#Objective vs #Subjective

[Juan Sp @DisFluent]

"The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation."

- Henry David Thoreau

[Juan Sp @DisFluent]

I had bloodwork done today for my Rheumatology appt next month.
#MyWorld
#TiredOfPain

[Juan Sp @DisFluent]

Stop and Stare | OneRepublic
https://t.co/ynH41In46z…
"Time to make one last appeal
For the life I live

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving, but I go nowhere

You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair

Stop and stare"

[Juan Sp @DisFluent]

I left wearing my pants...no underwear. My pants were wet too...luckily black pants. I had a towel in my car...I sat on that for my drive home. I'm so tired of dealing with pelvic pain! 😩
#MyWorld
#EmbarrassingDay

[Juan Sp @DisFluent]

I had another transvaginal ultrasound done today bcuz of cramps...had one done a year ago

I had to have a full bladder & I have overactive bladder...it did not go well. 1st part of the test I was fully clothed & I pissed on myself/clothes & the bed.
#MyWorld
#EmbarrassingDay

[Juan Sp @DisFluent]

I had another transvaginal ultrasound done today bcuz of cramps...had one done a year ago

I had to have a full bladder & I have overactive bladder...it did not go well. 1st part of the test I was fully clothed & I pissed on myself/clothes & the bed.
#MyWorld
#EmbarrassingDay

[Juan Sp @DisFluent]

Voc Rehab here has me back in mental health therapy. I started last week on 2/24/26. I'm so outdone and disappointed in myself. 😢 😭 🤬

#MyWorld
#Sisyphus
#TiredOfLife

[Juan Sp @DisFluent]

The World I Know | Collective Soul
https://t.co/HRF2MhWYnp
"So I walk up on high
And I step to the edge
To see my world below
And I laugh at myself
While the #tears roll down
'Cause it's the world I know
Oh its the world I know"

#MyWorld #MyJourney
#ThursdayThoughts
#LifeIsHard

[Juan Sp @DisFluent]

I got home from work ~30mins ago. SuperBowl was lopsided...so I didn't miss anything. My boy Cooper Kupp had a good game. Yes, Kupp...I still see U 👀 👀

I'm beat...long work day!

I'm eating a Dolly Parton frozen meal...tastes great. Then going to bed.
#MyWorld
#NoSocialLife

[Juan Sp @DisFluent]

Folk tell me to keep my head up, but @ the end of the day...they're all glad that they're not in my shoes...not walking my walk.

#MyWorld
#MyCycleOfDefeat
#MyWorldOfLemons
#MyLemonsDontMakeLemonade

[Juan Sp @DisFluent]

To everyone in Brookhaven, Atlanta & the surrounding areas. Y'alls winter storm was brutal!!! I know you're relieved that the worst of it is gone...still dealing with ice & dropping temps tho

Don't forget about the #homeless folk...they're always without power/electricity/gas 🥶