Ruth Guest

gp. wife. crafter. Trying to be a Poet. ice hockey and arsenal widow. held hostage by a greyhound.
Built for comfort not speed!
Views my own

[Ruth Guest @DoctorRoooth]

@DHSCgovuk So yet again you sacrifice patients and GPs on the alter of the big shiny buildings in secondary care. There are many GPs like me who are burnout and at their wits end who will now be even nearer the exit door...perhaps that is the plan. Nye Bevan will be turning in his grave

[Ruth Guest @DoctorRoooth]

@DrSdeG This is so so heartbreakingly accurate. My therapist once asked me 'Do you feel safe working the NHS?'.... and how I laughed.....and laughed until I cried

[Stephanie deGiorgio @DrSdeG]

If you choose to become a Dr in the NHS (or any HCP) know that
1. You will need a therapist
2. You will be treated as cannon fodder in the event of a health crisis.
3. That no one in authority has your back even though you make really tough decisions - life changing ones

It can still be a good job, but this is the reality.

[Katyayani Shukla @aibytekat]

I told my therapist,

“I keep achieving everything I set out to do, but I still feel empty.”

She didn't give me comfort.
Hearing her, my whole body went still.

Here's what she just replied:

[lets heal and recover @recovery_your]

Suicidal thoughts don’t always sound like “I want to die.”
Sometimes they sound like:
• “I don’t want to wake up.”
• “I can’t do this much longer.”
• “I don’t feel built for life.”
• “I’m tired of being in pain.”
• “I just want everything to stop.”

These aren’t attention seeking thoughts.
They’re distress signals and you deserve support.

[feelings ღ @eternaltxts]

no one talks about how draining it is when your mood constantly switches between "keep going, it will get better" and "i can't do this anymore, im about to give up." it's like living in emotional whiplash. one hour you're hopeful, the next you're spiralin

[skye @oycantik]

nobody talks about how exhausting it is to live between “things will get better” and “i can’t handle this anymore.” your emotions swing constantly, leaving you feeling both hopeful and defeated in the same day.

[lets heal and recover @recovery_your]

Christmas can hurt in ways that are hard to explain.
It brings memories, absences, and versions of life we never got to have.
If you’re feeling heavy, numb, or disconnected today you’re not broken.
You’re responding to loss, trauma, and unmet needs.
Be gentle with yourself. Survival is enough this Christmas.

[Ruth Guest @DoctorRoooth]

I wish these didn't resonate with me....but they do

[lets heal and recover @recovery_your]

Suicidal thoughts are often subtle.
They whisper instead of scream.
They sound like:
I don’t care what happens to me.
It might be easier if I wasn’t here.
I feel trapped in a life I can’t escape.
I don’t see a future for myself.
Everything feels too big, too loud, too heavy.
I’m numb, but it still hurts.
I’m here… but I’m not.
These aren’t “dramatic” thoughts.
They’re red flags.
They’re silent cries for help.
They’re signs someone needs compassion long before crisis.

[Dr. Linda Berman @LindaBerman4]

One falls in love, and then learns, for the duration, that one is at the mercy of someone else’s childhood.
Hanif Kureishi

#love #childhood

[Dr Steve Taylor @DrSteveTaylor]

Average spend / person / year in 🇬🇧

£300 coffee
£560 alcohol
£389 Vet Insurance
£240 Car maintenance & MOT
£600 takeaways
£350-£400 haircuts
£79 for just one Private GP consultation

You generally get the service you pay for ….usually 🤔😳

[Ruth Guest @DoctorRoooth]

Also true

[lets heal and recover @recovery_your]

I don’t want to die, I just don’t want to live like this.
That sentence holds more pain than most will ever understand.
It’s not about giving up it’s about wanting relief.
Wanting to stop hurting.
Wanting rest from a mind that never feels safe.
You don’t need to die to find peace.
You need to feel safe enough to live.

[Ruth Guest @DoctorRoooth]

This is so so true

[lets heal and recover @recovery_your]

Incase your weren’t aware due to the trauma we all experienced.
A lot of our explosive emotional reactions aren't actually responses to the present moment.
They're a buildup of all the times we were in similar situations and didn't stand up for ourselves, use our voice, or express our emotions."

[Parody RCGP @Parody_RCGP]

Thousands of GPs unemployed.
Incredible demand from the public concerned about their health.
Corridor care being normalised.
No mental health services.
People being examined in the back of ambulances and in car parks.

We have no money.

Also this.

[lets heal and recover @recovery_your]

Just heard someone say.
The reason you overthink is because someone in your life you trusted and loved.
Fucked you over so badly, so deeply.
That you now have to question everything.
I’m sorry if you understand.

[Ruth Guest @DoctorRoooth]

Spot on

[Cara Lisette @CaraLisette]

People want to talk about mental health when it’s all yoga, breathing exercises and self care, but go quiet when it becomes about not washing for days, not being able to work, self harm and social isolation.

Both conversations matter, but we need more of the second type.

[lets heal and recover @recovery_your]

As a result of trauma, you may have:
• Apologised for things that weren’t your fault
• Said “yes” when you meant “no”
• Stayed silent to keep the peace
• Forgot how to relax
• Learned how to disappear in plain sight

That’s not weakness. That’s adaptation.
I see you.

[Ruth Guest @DoctorRoooth]

THIS is the reality of being a gp. We are a huge clinical risk bucket. You have no idea

[Dr Goblin @DrGoblin3]

Late Friday. Cases of cold sweat-inducing clinical risk kept out of hospital. Just me, taking it on the chin. All far beyond my remit because other services say no.
If something happens they’ll throw me to the wolves. Nobody would help.

You’ll miss us.

#buckstopshere
#justaGP

[Ruth Guest @DoctorRoooth]

@recovery_your This is so true....its the slow descent into a space where you cannot function and no one sees it...least of all you yourself

[lets heal and recover @recovery_your]

This space is for:
The overthinkers.
The feelers.
The loners.
The black sheep.
The ones who cry alone then wipe their face and carry on.
The ones with trauma that never left their body.

If that’s you, I see you.
You’re not too much.
You’re not alone.
You belong here.

Let’s build a community rooted in softness, in truth, in safety.
Follow if you want in. 💙❤️