someone putting you through the same pain twice means they hate you... i'm sorry but there's just no other way to justify how you hurt someone, see the pain you've caused, etc, do whatever it takes to get them to trust & love you again just to put them through it all over again.
Intimacy is not who you let touch you. Intimacy is who you text at 3am about your dreams & fears. Intimacy is giving someone your attention, when ten other people are asking for it. Intimacy is the person always in the back of your mind, no matters how distracted you're"
i think i owe myself an apology for being in spaces where i knew l wasn't wanted & appreciated but instead i stayed, for forcing broken connections & ships. i owe myself an apology for putting people who never appreciated me before myself, doubting myself.