@mj_symonds @VampireGhuleh Idk you ever been without hope for so long you forget what it feels like ?
You ever had it for a fleeting moment before having it ripped from your fingers ?
Those alone are debilitating on their own, combine them...
5 Nov I will cast my ballot
I'm permanently out after. Y'all on your own from there on out.
I will make sure that the loml (who does not feel the same) has housing and power until the end of the lease we signed together.
To my mom and sister specifically: please accept her into the family. She needs it. Ik you'll blame her, but don't. It's not her fault. She didn't cause this.
To my family: The only stuff left is in the IRAs. Only mom and sister will have access. Everyone else can go fuck themselves. Especially my pos father, go buy a dildo to shove up your ass.
To my friends sent this on 6 Nov: I'm sorry.
I can't bear it any further. It's nobody's fault. You were all better off never knowing me, and I'm sorry I dragged your lives down with me.
So I'm back to being incomplete. Just another lonely soul unable to connect, left to sit in agony until the end, hastened by the trauma, the self torture, and intentional acts.
Setting fire to our inside just for fun, collecting names of lovers who went wrong.
Found who I thought was my person, was falling for them hard, giving them everything I could. But they told me it wasn't enough. That I wasn't enough. And I'm devastated.
This feels like the end. I'm not attractive, so pairing with people basically never happens. This person felt like my missing puzzle piece. But they said they're not.