EggNaugAlt🔞

This is my personal account to vent or post feelings, so my art account isn't flooded with non-art related sadness or whatever

18+ plz

Art account: @EggNaugTM

[EggNaugAlt🔞 @EggNaugAlt]

I feel like objectively pathetic. I want a partner, but considering who I am, and what I like to draw, I feel I have no business feeling sad about how I can't get one

I don't even really want a partner for the sake of it. I just want an intimate friend, who I like, and likes me

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I relate to this, which I feel is sad but oh well

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how do people get girlfriends im being so serious

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Sometimes I feel like I'm putting myself through torture having one of my main hobbies be drawing romantic art

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Feeling sad about how I have never had a romantic partner again :/

I don't even know how the fuck anyone finds their partners

Also dating apps are useless

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Way to go me for immediately going back to fucking hating the way I draw cats the day I come back from my hiatus.

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Felt super stressed making that thread on my main, and I don't even know if 90% of people will give a fuck. Oh well, felt important to say what I thought about all that.

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You know when it's been a good week for me when I haven't posted here during it.

Anyway, positive shit? Going to the college gym with a buddy, finishing a comic and some doodles. Art hasn't improved drastically in my hiatus but... Whatever, trying to stop obsessing over that.

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Really gotta keep reminding myself why I started making the art I do cuz it's been slipping recently

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Should probably remind myself not to post sad on main. I posted sad in a lot of places yesterday. Guess it was a cry for help, despite me not wanting to talk about what I'm feeling to others really

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I wish I wasn't such a fucking worthless piece of shit who made everything worse for everyone all the time. I hate myself so much. I want to die so badly sometimes.

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I'm sorry to anyone who's ever had the annoying misfortune of knowing me and being annoyed or negatively impacted by me or my existence

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I really wish I not only had a therapist, but that they could truly understand anything I told them properly. I almost feel like I need a furry therapist just so I know they'd be able to comprehend the stupid bullshit I'd say to them

I also wish I didn't hate myself

I do tho

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I wish I didn't hate myself so often

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I wish I wasn't so conflicted and annoyed at so many things in the furry art NSFW community. Was talking to a bud about it, and thinking when I come back, I should talk about my feelings about NSFW furry art, and especially the super hard kink, and legally questionable things :/

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By the way, if you're worried about me, I don't think I will die any time soon. I may be suicidal and hate myself, and want to be dead, but I'm so scared of pain, and idk any painless ways to die. I'm too much of a cowards to actually die, so I just live on, and wish to die

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I don't feel I deserve anything in life, other than a bullet in my fucking face. I hate living like this

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I wish I had a reason not to feel like such a fucking worthless piece of garbage, but I feel I don't have any. I feel me existing is selfish and horrible. I wish I could stop believing that, but I also know I'll struggle to believe anyone telling me that I don't deserve to die.

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Feeling guilty weighs on your mind so much. I feel so guilty about so many things. I genuinely think the world would be better without me. I feel the longer I exist, the worse I make anything around me. Like, if I was at all a moral person, I'd remove myself from everyone's lives

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I want to die

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Any time anyone is negative about something I can even loosely connect to myself, I just hate myself more. I hate myself so much, and I care so much about what others think. I don't think it's logical, but I just feel it's safer to assume someone would despise me than like me.