Hi! You can call me Sin! Welcome to my account!
I have lots of thoughts, some I just wanna scream out somewhere, this account is that somewhere!
Expect random snippets of my thoughts, some venting, some euphoria posting, and many more!
Havent posted in a little bit, BUT I got gendered female yesterday at work ^-^ Was a brief conversation they were just asking for stuff, but I got gendered female and it made my day!! Havent been gendered female since I cut my hair so that was great, guess its long enough now!!
Update: I did not, I boymoded the whole time and that wasnt fun. Also had problems with the whole hiding boobs thing which turned into a fight with my mother so yippee
Welp, we broke up. It was mutual. The hardest part of a mutual break up is learning how to be friends again after.
I want her so badly to be mine, but it just isn't time. I hope the friendship lasts at least.
@ridhima_z Sucks when you start to hear it less and less. Then one day you, while doing nothing in particular, hear her laugh, a memory of it, and you end up breaking down crying, and feeling numb for the rest of the day.
I'm going to get up off my ass and fulfil her dreams. For her, I will eat better, live better, work harder, and actually chase opportunities so I can fulfil her dreams. Young Clair, you will get the future you thought would only come to you in your dreams. I swear it.
I'll leave this here as a way to hold myself accountable. Anyone who sees this message you will be my witness.
I wont lose my whimsy, I wont lose who I am. But its time for me to grow up just a little more. Its time for me to each out and grab what I want instead of waiting.
I dont want to jinx anything, but I remember when it was gonna be 2 years till I can save enough to see you. Then it was a year, now seeing you by October seems so plausible.
I need this, please gods you all better not have something fucked up your sleeve to throw at me.
I love her so much, that I'll still stay, because I want to keep trusting that I am still that to her, her anchor, her primary, no matter who she meets.
Being in a situationship with a Poly girl who's actively meeting new people from across the ocean as an Anxious Attachment girlie is great, never have I ever experienced being anxious almost everyday for the last 2 or 3 weeks.
Despite how much it hurts to feel like she might find someone in her area she want to spend more time with than me, how everyday my insecurities and fears of abandonment whisper into my ear telling me that I'll be less and less like an anchor partner or primary partner to her