My last payout was in October last year… and since then, my life has been pure hell in this trading journey. Every single time I grind through and finally reach the funded stage, I end up blowing the entire account. I don’t even know what the problem is anymore. I’ve asked myself a thousand times, but the answer never comes.I pass Phase 1 and Phase 2 like clockwork — consistently, almost every time. But the moment I’m funded and the real pressure hits, something breaks inside me. The discipline vanishes, the emotions take over, and I watch everything I worked for disappear. This year alone, I’ve already blown my @Nairatrader
and @Nairapropfirm
accounts. Just like that. All that time, all that hope… gone.
I’ve lost over $200 of my own hard-earned capital feeding this dream. I’ve bought challenge after challenge, account after account. Dozens of prop firm accounts.
Over 40 funded accounts in less than a year… and only ONE payout to show for it. One. The mental torture of getting so close, seeing the profit targets, feeling like freedom is finally here, only for it to slip away again and again… it’s destroying me.The account charts tell the story — massive drawdowns, near-total losses, green days turning red in hours. I open positions like those three 0.1 lots on gold thinking I’m being smart, and then the fear kicks in. Support messages start coming, questioning rules, threatening to deny payouts… and my heart just sinks.I’m so tired. Exhausted. Mentally drained. Some days I cry, some days I’m numb. I know this cycle is toxic. I know I should stop. But I can’t. Trading has a hold on me I can’t break. The hope that “next time will be different” keeps pulling me back in, even when I’m broken.If anyone out there has been through this same pain the constant passing of challenges only to fail when it matters most please tell me how you escaped. Because right now, I feel stuck in a loop that’s costing me money, time, peace, and my sanity.I just want one stable funded account. One real payout. One chance to breathe.But damn… I don’t know how much more of this I can take.
@prrettyqueen@waymac_x Sometimes the amount I lose in trading can't be voice out I will just lie and even the lie self I go still chop insult inside 😂😂😂.
If you’re stuck between the hard path and the easy path, choose the hard path, because if the easy path were the right path, you would’ve chosen it already.
I’ll openly say this and every man should learn this
If a woman loses interest in you, let her go
Always be ready for a woman’s change of character, emotions and attitude
Love and interest has an expiring time limit
Always be ready to accept the inevitable, just like the human body is bound to die no matter how much you care and protect it
A woman cannot be appeased until she finds self fulfillment
I am here for an incredible new weeks
Money flows to me effortlessly.
I attract every positive energy
The timely of my life s always perfect
I don't chase I attract success, in every area of my life.
My life circle(friends) ⭕ started getting shorter(smaller ) when I step deeper towards the world.
I see what people are truly are
I learn, I smile, it hurt, it breaks me.
But one thing I never allow is. I never lose myself
The highs and lows happen for a reason just like in trading there must be highs and lows for the journey to continue in life
So breath, smile
Laugh cause at the end.
Yesterday s not today again focus on today and prepare for tomorrow
My life circle(friends) ⭕ started getting shorter(smaller ) when I step deeper towards the world.
I see what people are truly are
I learn, I smile, it hurt, it breaks me.
But one thing I never allow is. I never lose myself
The highs and lows happen for a reason just like in trading there must be highs and lows for the journey to continue in life
So breath, smile
Laugh cause at the end.
Yesterday s not today again focus on today and prepare for tomorrow
My life circle(friends) ⭕ started getting shorter(smaller ) when I step deeper towards the world.
I see what people are truly are
I learn, I smile, it hurt, it breaks me.
But one thing I never allow is. I never lose myself
The highs and lows happen for a reason just like in trading there must be highs and lows for the journey to continue in life
So breath, smile
Laugh cause at the end.
Yesterday s not today again focus on today and prepare for tomorrow