At the end of the silence, I can only be silent in silence. Blaming myself for not being able to fight fate. As painful as fate is, I cannot change it. God knows all your feelings. But God cannot change all your misfortunes into beautiful happiness.
Learn to strengthen yourself to process in a new life. Don't despair, don't give up facing every challenge that comes one after another. Believe in Allah SWT that Rizki's job will come suddenly according to your goodness in this world.
Life is funny...
The one we seek disappears...
The one we chase runs away...
The one we wait for leaves...
Until the moment we surrender and give in, the universe works.
Some appear the same...
Some are better than planned...
Dear Allah, there are no words that I want to express in this writing. But you already know everything that I am feeling. Hug and strengthen me, O Allah. That's all.
The world is too tiring to think about, and so too about finding a soulmate, there is no need to chase or force it. What will be yours will find its way to you.
What did the twilight tell me? It turned out that it whispered that your hopes don't need to be waited for. Just look at the twilight as life should go. That the most beautiful things don't always come with hope. And the most beautiful things will come when we live this life.
Currently in the phase of being sincere with everything. Not forcing, not wanting, not looking, not finding, not even waiting. Simply living the life that has currently been provided by Allah SWT, namely being a hard-working woman and a responsible single mother.
I will tell you my sad moans, O Allah, in my last prostration in the Isha prayer. I cried endlessly to ask you to hug me, O Allah, to embrace me, O Allah. You are the only one who is always there for me in my joys and sorrows, O Allah.
I have never found a piece of happiness. I only feel a piece of sadness. At least in my solitude, I have you O Allah SWT, a place for me to complain about all the things that I am unable to tell humans.
O Allah, I know that you are the one who created my conscience, you are the one who created my caring heart, and you are also the one who created my tears. If I cry, that is what makes my soul touched by painful and sad things.
I'm sorry I ended everything for the sake of choosing the best path. Between the two of us, there is no desire to give in to each other in our own ways. Egoism makes us unable to understand each other or even have each other completely. You want hell and I want heaven.
Already at the level of surrender in terms of a soulmate. No need to search, chase or even wait. Because what is destined will find its way to be met soon.
My world collapsed without happiness. For a moment, only dreams are what I always get. I have to keep walking alone, strengthening myself, so that I can go through the bitterness of life that I always go through continuously without a beautiful ending.