Em

Secretary alt of a system she/her/they

[Em @EmSecretary]

Honestly they are probably all just waiting until after I solo todays allergy shot to come back. Cowards.

[Em @EmSecretary]

And I guess another thing that makes it weird. Normally I hide my existence, lie about who is fronting, pretend to be one of the others. I once told Ay I’m cool with her being main front because she’s who I hide behind. So I do everything in everyone else’s style.

[Em @EmSecretary]

So I’ve been more open about me being front more these past couple days. I’ve stopped hiding that it’s me. But yeah, anyways, been front stuck since last Tuesday with only occasional pop ins from the others. Wheeeeee fuck.

[Em @EmSecretary]

Well, alarm just went off so I’m supposed to go do stuff, make coffee. As Em says: time to do, time to be (whatever the fuck that means)

[Em @EmSecretary]

This is Tab, posting on this account instead of Ay’s account which is normally the one I hijack, because I wanna talk a little about DID and we usually keep that topic low key on Ay’s. Lately my headmates have been really quiet, and I keep getting frontstuck.

[Em @EmSecretary]

Ay has been talking about stepping down as main front for a while now, been threatening to make Em be main front, but Em refuses on account of her being a constructed alter and not having a full identity (which is bullshit, she predates Ay).

[Em @EmSecretary]

@tslycha Same. Been about a year since we took any nude pics.

[Em @EmSecretary]

@tslycha Ha yeah. But they are still more graceful than I am so I try to hold my tongue, they probably know what they are doing better than I do.

[Em @EmSecretary]

I don’t normally front when this stoned, so this is… munchies? Why am I giggling and crying at the same time? Oh now my headmates are laughing at me! Well, I guess that’s one way to keep them from hiding.

[Em @EmSecretary]

Shit. Half my headmates just checked out. We got deadnamed, and now my head is scrambled. Ugh. Also apparently whoever was fronting decided to deal with the deadnaming by crying a lot and smoking a lot of weed, and then called me up front.

[Em @EmSecretary]

Banjo G chord inversions, and a fragment of a song with note duration measured in mine cart distance. I assume she kept the memory private because that’s her default, but I dunno why she laughed and made me go look at our journal instead of just telling me. Headmates are weird.

[Em @EmSecretary]

Figured it out. She wrote down notes in our journal. Minecraft banjo. Aha. Now the memories are starting to flow in.

[Em @EmSecretary]

If I try and ask Tab what she was doing she just laughs. But she did at least take copies of that music book we’ve been wanting to scan. Well, by copies I mean she took out of focus crooked cell phone pics, because she refuses to use the printer/scanner.