@Kitten_Sophie I suffer from the same thing. I'm sorry you're in a low point. What helps me is my mantra: it'll be okay. When that negative energy feels like all I've got, I always tell my self it'll be okay. It always, eventually, is so.
@Kitten_Sophie Finger up the butt then put pressure on the prostate. Don't know about bigger semen ejaculate, but it's a possibility. You can do the same thing through careful edging, keeping him on the cusp for 15 or 20 minutes. That's an incredible orgasm