Cazimír | it/hym | shedtwt

🪦 Take these broken wings and learn to fly
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🪦 diary of disordered thoughts 🪦 I like my scars 🪦 pro-recovery for others 🪦 Ghost of TWSH nation 🪦

[Cazimír | it/hym | shedtwt @FallToMyDeath]

𝑰’𝒎 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒏 𝒔𝒖𝒓𝒗𝒊𝒗𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒏𝒚𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆- 𝑰’𝒎 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆, 𝒂 𝒈𝒉𝒐𝒔𝒕 𝒉𝒂𝒖𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆 𝑰 𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝑰’𝒅 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆.

🥀 𝑨𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝑴𝒆 & 𝑩𝒆𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝑭𝒐𝒍𝒍𝒐𝒘 🥀

[Cazimír | it/hym | shedtwt @FallToMyDeath]

@7tspvanilla As someone who self harms lowkey yea.

Normally i get really worked up, start crying, tell myself its okay, let my anger explode a bit and complain to myself how unfair it is, and then breathe deeply and go get a snack or something to drink from the fridge and move on

[lexie @7tspvanilla]

i find it insane how there are people who have never even thought about hurting themselves like what do you even do when you’re upset

[💋 Evie 🏳️‍⚧️ @R3belDiamond]

You ever just kinda realise that you haven't really been living your life but life has just sort of reluctantly been happening to you? No? Just me? Okay

[Cazimír | it/hym | shedtwt @FallToMyDeath]

@zoemoding @tinglespoon Lowkey gind a purpose. Acknowledge every little positive thing

Brush your teeth today? Yayyy, you THOUGHT about brushing teeth? Yayy better than nothing

You left the house? You texted someone back? You got out of bed to watch tv?

Every little thing. Train yourself to be happy

[Cazimír | it/hym | shedtwt @FallToMyDeath]

@tinglespoon Literally its a form of trauma imo too, like you get so depressed that you can't access happiness, and then your brain gets convinced it wont work, you try and the depression wins out enough that you end up in a loop unril you either stop being depressed, or brute force through

[Eve ⚢ @tinglespoon]

one of the things that rlly sucks about depression is that you cant tell someone that has it what the solution to any of their problems are because theyve already heard it and just dont believe it because it sounds fucking stupid

[Cazimír | it/hym | shedtwt @FallToMyDeath]

@verbose5432 @Y40IFRQTTING @etymologycrepe It quite literally does lol. Having no one understand your internal world is extremely isolating.

You can be lonely surrounded by people

[🗝️ @deepmuses]

genuine question literally what do you journal about if you're someone whose life just consists of the same problems that have perpetuated for years and there's not much outside that like

[svpr3m3 @vv0nda]

i wasn’t ‘present’ for a good number of years in my life. from like 18-23. i’m 25 now. looking back and realizing i was mindlessly moving, connections weren’t true, didn’t know who i was or what i really wanted for myself, made me kinda sad and resentful for a lot of reasons.

[Cazimír | it/hym | shedtwt @FallToMyDeath]

All i want is an energy drink and because im on a mental health hold im being denied.

I havent even been told anything about whats happening

Istg im gonna start bashing my head into walls and running away if they say no to letting my friend/wife visit me

[vera @rottenegl]

first in my bloodline to write my emotional outbursts on twitter instead of a diary or vent to somebody like a normal person

[Cazimír | it/hym | shedtwt @FallToMyDeath]

@pleadedguilt Literally T-T

[Cazimír | it/hym | shedtwt @FallToMyDeath]

Well.. ended up with 4 cops in my house and being escorted to the ER in the back of a cop car.

Didn't even grab my energy drink

[Cazimír | it/hym | shedtwt @FallToMyDeath]

Had a suicidal breakdown again, begged for help, immediately got distressed when they offered a welfare check.

Why am i trapped between isolation or reliving traumatic experiences and losing my rights

[MJM @MikeJMele]

Those who are suicidal due to mental illness are not happily anticipating death like a kid waiting for Santa. They fear it just like everyone else & don’t want to die. The pain is horrendous. Do you know how badly one must feel to believe that death is a better option than life?

[cannibal @fagcannibal]

i seriously forget that self mutilation isnt like normal

[⸝⸝ sparxie of shtwt ᨳ𐔌՞҂ ˕ ֊՞𐦯ᜊ @catsparxie]

yall joke about it but i genuinely feel horrible for having such fucked up mental health that i can't get a job

[C33CEE @unctiecici]

@leftunsents then they give up helping you because you’ve gotten so annoying and tiring to them when you’re genuinely just wishing people would understand you’re not baiting it’s just a continuous battle of being passively and actively suicidal

[🦋 @leftunsents]

being passively suicidal is so embarrassing because you're literally screaming for help in plain sight but everyone just thinks ur baiting

[Cazimír | it/hym | shedtwt @FallToMyDeath]

Had a suicidal breakdown again, begged for help, immediately got distressed when they offered a welfare check.

Why am i trapped between isolation or reliving traumatic experiences and losing my rights

[q 情 • 未来道师 @KU1X1N]

wanting victims to heal bc u can’t stand to hear their criticisms of the world is the same bullshit fake kindness of “please go to therapy” go fuck urselves lol