I wanna have sex. Passionate sex. Sucking tongues sex. Talking each other through it type sex. Eye contact during strokes type sex. Just some real ass intimacy, that may be or feel like love making.
Watching porn, buying porn, and engaging with pornstars does not make you an abuser or an addict or a sexist. There is nothing wrong with masturbation, it’s normal and human. You are not sinning or hurting anyone by enjoying adult content any more than you are by watching a movie