vonnegut is such a performative man omg. like what do you mean he’s over 6 feet tall, a doctor, interested in philosophy and likes cats 😭 what’s next? he listens to tvgirl too ?
so touch starved i fantasize about simply being held and caressed like i am precious . yet the idea of someone touching me is terrifying bc i feel so grotesque. so im going to stand in the middle of train tracks tomorrow
it never mattered how many people loved me or hated me my desire to kill myself was entirely rooted in my subconscious belief that it was my destiny to do so
"do you wanna call?" you dont have to ask just call me yes i want you to watch me do my makeup i want to watch you play games and yes i want to sleep call aswell