Girl to girl: it's okay to be alone. It's okay to have a dry phone. It's okay to be celibate, it's okay to have high standards. Your peace, your pace, your rules.
Nonsexual intimacy is such a lost art. The eye contact, the gentle touch, deep convo, holding hands, mutual support, hugging, non sexual massages, cooking a meal together, shared experiences, cuddles, curiosity, silence feels warm. I can go on an on about this.
Your abuser wants you to believe that y’all are equally abusive to each other.
They want you to believe that your attempt to hold them accountable is you being toxic.