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I do not know. I accepted it.
I was often ashamed, felt weak. My face is red. Nose, mouth and eyes swollen up, sometimes they look like donuts. I look so shitty.
but that's me.
that's me too.
it's a lot to feel.
it's ok to show it.
I try to love it, because it is a part of me.
sometimes I just start crying. sometimes less sometimes a little more often.
I do not know exactly why that happened or where it came from. it just happens.
maybe I just have an overload again. maybe because of the many people, the narrow space or the many noises around me.