i dont want to talk to him about my thoughts either because i can be too much and he’s going to get tired of my constant negativity, and in general, myself . i just know he’s gonna think that this is fucking dumb
Fuck i hate being myself . Boyfriend is being a therapist to his friends ex and im beginning to overthink and worrying about the future that my boyfriend will get feelings and cheat . the only reason why he’s talking to him is because he feels bad and doesn’t
want him to kill himself. he’s told me before that he actually hates his guts but i dont know … what if he’s lying? i dont want my gut to tell the truth, i dont want to be right . please dont let this come true
i was questioning whether if i should steal more blades but i ended up chickening out bc there was a camera right in front of me . i hope it’ll be much easier to steal once it’s cold out because of sweaters and such