Suzy

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Person who wants their exhaustion recognised.
I love my rabbits.

[Suzy @Fibbit444]

Hmm. Looking back, letting myself become increasingly dependant on a self-described narcissist and abuser wasn't the brightest thing to do.

[Suzy @Fibbit444]

I need to distract myself more, but I just don't enjoy doing a lot of things.
Weed has been a really good stress reliever, but I've been smoking it almost daily now for the past three-ish weeks, sooo I'm taking a break.

[Suzy @Fibbit444]

If I haven't cut myself by the end of this month, it'll be a miracle.
I'm trying not to anyway. I don't know why.

[Suzy @Fibbit444]

It’s been two months and I’m still losing sleep over them and what happened. It’s just annoying now.

[dear @deardeerdoll]

dont be nice to me or ill spend my entire life trying to please you

[meru ⚢ @plaks4ngel]

hi, i have abandonment issues, when are you leaving so i can plan my suicide

[Suzy @Fibbit444]

@kaevryn_ yea ok

[cassie @keepitcassiie]

just realized ill have this face and body for the rest of my life

[Suzy @Fibbit444]

Got all my photos and messages moved over onto my new phone. The last time I backed everything up though was before I met them…
I suppose not having the evidence of our interaction is something I shouldn’t really be caring about anymore. But losing it hurts anyway.

[Suzy @Fibbit444]

@wbu_tilly IT ISSSS

[ash ✧ @ashyaywoohoo]

look at me. look at how f*cking little i am. im so f*cking tiny and emo... you'll never get it...

[Suzy @Fibbit444]

@wbu_tilly IT ISSSS

[Suzy @Fibbit444]

@wbu_tilly ohh i guess i can try see what i can do then tomorrow lol

[Suzy @Fibbit444]

Here we go again tomorrow. Just existing.
I really long for a purpose but I’m seriously just incapable of working towards giving myself one.
I just need someone else around to give me one.

[Suzy @Fibbit444]

I love the people I follow I jump up and down when they post and I notice when they slow down.
I might not reply every time they have a rough patch but I’m still sending lots of love!

[V @gvthicpaws]

“… liked 5 of your posts” chillll i’m easy 👀👀

[Suzy @Fibbit444]

I’d probably beat it to death.
I think it would appreciate that. 😛

[avery .✦ ݁˖ @quillandcurses]

procrastinating things i WANT to do

[Suzy @Fibbit444]

Cutting would be AMAZING right now, but I’ve gone so long without doing it,
and also it’s like 1 30am and I’ve got uni tomorrow I should be asleep lol😛

[Suzy @Fibbit444]

I’ve been doing very well recently, but like… it’s kind of just been for no reason.
If I stay purposeless, then I’m going to fold eventually when I hit a rough patch.
What’s the point in going on if I know it’s reasonless, and won’t last?