maybe i resent "flow state" because, to me, it equals lowering my guard, and then as a consequence, fucked up traumatizing things can explode into my face/room when im distracted. also my parents hated seeing me happy and content. any knock immediately breaks my focus/triggers
@Jonny337799 I’ve tried for years but they just look dead. I haven’t tried leaning into the failure and incorporating it into my “style” yet because my ego can’t handle it haha
@sunlytle@maratycznie there's nothing stopping them from doing shady shit, especially after nfts. I would be wary of anything like this even if they were an artist.
@Jonny337799 Literally exactly how I feel. I read the art history book the shock of the new about 20th ce art. That annihilated the vague hope that I had that art could have any kind of utility… I also feel like, it’s so demoralizing grappling with my own mediocrity n lack of creativity
also-- i've completely lost my place in the internet. All the shows/fandoms/websites I used to participate in have pretty much ended. Idk where to see art anymore... bluesky? All the artists I followed straight up left twitter a long time ago.
im really stuggling with my relationship to the internet... in my teens and early 20's it was an escape. but now I don't want to escape as much + it wastes tooo much time. Everything just seem so artificial, yet its where all my skills lie (digital art, editing, video games)