》》idk. I've only felt discouraged and annoyed lately. I'm in a rut that I can't crawl myself out of. There's no joy to writing anymore.
I feel pretty broken up about it.
》》I'm kinda considering quitting role play. I think what little ideas I have are bad, and I spend more time worrying about that than actually writing anything down. It's lost it's zeal and fun for me and I don't know how to get it back. My job is also just... really hard.
》》on top of that... nobody fucking cares that I'm here except of exactly one person. And I get bitter. I get jealous but I do nothing about it. I feel stuck in an endless cycle of open the app, feel disappointment, close it again.
I'm just so tired.