Montargis

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[Montargis @Hsp_0908]

Gemini要是留白金发色得帅成什么样儿

[GeminiFourth Support @GeminiFourthsup]

Gemini's endment (full) -
//ps. long translation ahead

GEMINI ART VENTURE FINALE
#GeminiConcertD3
#Gemini_NT

♊: In the fan project, there was a sentence saying, "Sorry for expecting too much from me." I really don't like this phrase at all. Sorry for not liking it, but I just don't like it. I really don't. Why should you apologize? It's actually a good thing.
♊: People need to have expectations. You have to expect something anyway. If one day people no longer expect anything from you, that's the day you cease to have an identity. I actually want you all to expect things from me. That is what has brought me to this point.
♊: Honestly, expectations are something I fear, but they are also something I cannot live without. It might sound contradictory, but I've been living with this my entire life. I can't be without it. It's like I'm addicted to expectations.
♊: Starting from the beginning, the people who expect things from us aren't far away... it's our parents. My parents definitely had high expectations of me. Because they had a hard time conceiving, I was an IVF baby. So they only had me, just one child. Having another child was extremely difficult & very expensive. I felt sorry for my mom & dad because it was such a struggle just to have one child. They waited for a very long time before having me.. they had been married for almost 10 years before I was born.
♊: So, it was unavoidable that they would have expectations of me, especially since I'm an only child & a son. I had to grow up to become the pillar of the family & be able to take care of everyone. They naturally expected this of me when I grew up. So I just kept doing things. As a kid, I didn't think much of it... it's normal for parents to expect things from their children, everyone goes through it. But for me, the expectations were... were they too high? Yes, they were high.
♊: My mom is quite a perfectionist, so she wanted me to do everything and be the absolute best at everything.
♊: Honestly, looking back, I think she might not have necessarily wanted me to be the very best, but rather just wanted me to try things out and learn how to do them. But at that time, I felt like, "Why does mae want everything to be so perfect?" It's impossible for one person to do everything and excel at every single thing. It's just impossible. But because I didn't understand back then, the only message I received was that I had to be the best & be able to do everything. So I did it. I tried so many different things, just as you've seen in this concert... I took singing lessons, tried playing sports with friends tried joining a band, and tried entering the competition at Thailand School Star.
Having this many fans today... if it weren't for the expectations back then, today wouldn't exist either.
But none of you need to apologize for expecting things from me. I want everyone to expect a lot from me. Because having a concert or producing a piece of work... it's only right that people have expectations. And I want to deliver on those expectations.
Personally, I view myself as lazy. I'm someone who... like I said, I didn't know what I wanted to grow up to be. I had no passion.... very little passion.
But when people place their expectations on me, when people want me to do this or that, it makes me want to live up to what they expect of me. That's my driving force. So thank you so much for expecting things from me... there's no need to apologize at all.
However... if there's anything to apologize for, it might just be one thing: some people might not see that what I am today... isn't just talent.
I feel like... sure, talent exists, but you can't just attribute everything to that side alone. I've put in a tremendous amount of effort in ways people don't see, and in areas many might overlook.
You might not see the background of what I've faced in life, or what I've had to go through at an age where... I've only just turned 22.

[aye ✰ @limingbot]

they gave me cutie silly ceo fourth and secretary gem.

[Montargis @Hsp_0908]

啥形容词也回忆不上来 啥感受也抒发不了 大脑白茫茫一片 应该只是缺觉了���

[Montargis @Hsp_0908]

@030241b 加油宝宝，都会过去的

[Montargis @Hsp_0908]

最近每天都要分出来几小块儿的时间耽溺在这俩人身上，可是这样的幸福感又没办法延伸到现实生活中，也没有志同道合的朋友可以分享，好像自己陷在一个非常非常狭小的洞穴里，离群索居，���缩着身体，眼睛只是着迷地盯着像神一样发光的宝物……

[Montargis @Hsp_0908]

我好脆弱我好无助，我的悲惨命运，随便放首情歌或者任何慢歌，都能让已经狠狠忍住的眼泪轻轻松松就滚落下来。

[Montargis @Hsp_0908]

睡到晚上十点就醒了 真的想死

[王慧玲HuilingWang @wanghuiling211]

之前有个妹子问我怎么看于朦胧这事，我只能说盐碱地死一个人就跟死条狗一样，学校里死一个学生跟死条狗一样，医院里医疗事故死个患者跟死条狗一样，我之前在一条做胆囊炎手术死在手术台家属的帖子下面看了几十条各种医疗事故枉死的案例……触目惊心，这只是冰山一角，无论你家长家属怎么扯横幅在学校医院门口维权，抱着孩子遗像跪在门口痛哭等最多就是一条热搜，没有公道，没有真相，没有地方给你说理，过不了多久就会被新死的一条“狗”的新闻替换，如此反复，就跟那些不断在婚姻里被男人杀死的女人一样，跟死了一条狗没区别。

没有后台背景的明星是一样的，最多热搜多几条，盐碱地没有法治，自秦朝2000年以来都是人治，“治”的那群人他们太害怕了，他们太恐惧了，像惊弓之鸟一样坐在高高在上的庙堂里，他们害怕尼泊尔那样的事发生，外面一有动静一听到嘈���声第一个念头就是打下去，压下去，维稳高于一切。

打压，掩盖，恐吓，欺骗，说谎，大事化小 小事化了就是大致治理方针，这一套在无数家庭里的爹身上都有体现，家庭是社会最小的权力机构，社会上那些中等的，大的，超大机构里的掌权者和家庭里的爹是一样的，弱者得到权力后的面孔大同小异。

在盐碱地里最“好”的活法（首选且最有效的是迁徙换块土壤）就是远离人群和所谓的圈子，远离主流社会，尽量避免和公权力以及公共机构打交道，保持最低程度的消耗活着，这样最起码你会得到一个相对平静的内心和相对健康的身体。

当然这些他们都想到了，这就是为什么他们想尽一切办法催生，就是怕你远离，怕你躺平（躺平类博主基本上都��了）就怕你不玩他们的游戏，只要你生了孩子，和公共机构（如医疗教育等）主流社会捆绑被公权力支配就是必然的。

至于那些被公共机构公权里的某个人侵害想要讨要说法的人，比起上访，比起去公共机构大门口哭诉，维权，更有效的做法是找到罪魁祸首，把他从他所在的集体当中剥离出来去解决问题，身处集体会让弱者产生强大的幻想，集体也会处于维护自恋以及害怕连带责任而通常选择维护作恶者，你一个个体无法和集体抗衡，但是你是可以跟作恶的个体对抗一下的。

[Montargis @Hsp_0908]

如果我十七岁时就有人爱的话会怎么样

[Montargis @Hsp_0908]

德班今天是在草地里开心地跑完了几大圈才开始拉屎，它耳朵大，又白，草长高了，它在里面��蹦高高的，跳脱得像白兔，傍晚的阳光，柔的，眼前是自然一片，真美，给我看愣了。

不是每只狗都会开心地跑完几大圈才开始拉屎，每只狗都不一样，每只狗每天似乎也不一样。

[Montargis @Hsp_0908]

宝子，别做��妇

[Montargis @Hsp_0908]

以后只要各人得各人的眼泪

[Montargis @Hsp_0908]

说到底还是圈子太狭了

[Montargis @Hsp_0908]

偏头痛发作，痛到第二天早晨，吃了止痛药，等效果。

[Montargis @Hsp_0908]

我们的生活是怎样的像做戏

[Montargis @Hsp_0908]

我想养头大象

[Montargis @Hsp_0908]

醒来发现自己还活着，有点偷着乐

[Montargis @Hsp_0908]

不咋恨国了，最近穿衣服比较喜欢露乳沟