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21 and depressed

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I want to be pretty enough to matter to people

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I have nothing and am nothing

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Not my friends calling me fat even when they don’t mean to 🥲

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I just want to be dead

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@veresdiet Or when you look for diet/skinny recipes and keto stuff pops up that’s 600+ calories and loaded with fat

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It’s crazy watching people who are actually worth something live their lives

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@rakiakoffee 4 is prime but otherwise 3

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I wouldn’t even be taken seriously by professionals. I’m too fat to be treated for an Ed but i feel like I’m losing my mind

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I know I’m never going to escape this and it’s taken all of me at this point. I don’t know life outside of thinking about food

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I’ve had this account since early high school. I’m now a college senior and still feel like I can only truly express my deep issues here

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Paranoia really out here trying to kill me

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@etherealiaa I’m so happy for you ❤️

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It’s funny how every morning I tell myself I won’t drink again but then my dumbass still fucking does it

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I actually wish I was dealing with useless high school drama again. Adult shit hurts so much deeper because you know it won’t go away.

You never get to graduate out of it

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Me fasting all day just to spend my calories on alcohol 🍾

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How do you guys deal with self harm scars? I’m trying to get mine to heal better or lighten but nothing seems to work

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I genuinely hate my father. I can’t deal with people being selfish, lazy, and full of themselves and not caring even when it hurts their family

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@Daintyugw 🌿