today i served a table with a really good looking japanese girl dating a really good looking korean guy
they were holding hands and being all happy and flirting and now i wanna die god why
When I say "I wish I didn't exist" or "I wish I wasn't real" I don't mean it in a "I wanna die" way. But in a "I wish I wasn't real. I wish I was fictional.
So other people could play my life for me, and care about my hardships and life and it be seen as lore and not trauma
I donโt like the singular โlipโ in the fashion sense. When somebody says somebody is โwearing a bold red lipโ I want to die. I know it makes no sense. I canโt be helped, leave me to cringe.