Servitus

Born Again Virgin and Beta-Loser For My Goddess, Vailen

*THE FOLLOWING POSTS CHRONICLE MY DESCENT INTO LOSERDOM.*

[Servitus @IAmServitus]

I wanted to share a personalized game I've invented for myself, along with Goddess Vailen's blessing. This is my avatar in the new MMO 'Monsters and Memories', and she is a Solo, Self-Found Enchanter. This means that I cannot group, trade, or receive help from other players.

This is an extremely punishing restriction, as this game is modelled after the original EverQuest from 1999 and is a group oriented game. When you die, you drop all equipment, spells, lose 10% EXP, and have to run back to your corpse to reclaim.

Each time I die, or 'restart' as Goddess Vailen prefers, I pay her a $10 tribute. This is to both punish my carelessness and to show my respect and appreciation to her for allowing me to use her name. I will post each of my 'restarts' here on this X feed, as well as a brief explanation of how it happened, my level, and my accumulated playtime. I am excited to see how much time I can devote to her, and am happy to share it with others.

So far, I've had to pay Goddess Vailen $70 in 'Restart Tributes'. Each death has been a painful lesson and I am doing my best to limit these failures. Something tells me my wallet is going to feel substantially lighter before I reach Level 60. 😅

[Servitus @IAmServitus]

I've learned a spell that allows me to summon a 'Shadowkin Defender' pet, and I have named him Servitus. This allows me to serve Goddess Vailen in Aêthoril as her incroporeal knight. 🛡️

[L @Amy789201]

First month almost completed :))

[Servitus @IAmServitus]

@Amy789201 @houseofhumil It is such an innovative way to domme pathetic betas like us, and I love how Goddess Vailen is breaking the mould by trying out new things.

[Servitus @IAmServitus]

@houseofhumil I'll definitely be listening to this one tonight as I lay alone in my bed. Something tells me I'm going to be a very sleepy 'Beta-Bitch' in the morning.

Thanks again for another piece of flawless art, Goddess.🙇‍♂️

[Servitus @IAmServitus]

@houseofhumil One cheap frame coming up, and look at all that empty wallspace for future expansion. 😅

[Servitus @IAmServitus]

'Restart #7'

Wow, I am such a beta-loser. I went to the 'Used Weapon Vendor' to sell some equipment and accidently hit my auto-attack button instead of right clicking him to open his shop. Suffice to say I was one-hit-killed.

That's two today.... I gotta start paying better attention.

Level 7 Enchanter, Playtime = 1 Day, 8.75 hours

[Servitus @IAmServitus]

Death #6

Was jumped by a skeleton in the Night Harbor Cemetery. Another player stood by and watched me die like a tool, but when I went back to reclaim my corpse, I watched as HE died to a group of Crypt Scarabs and had a good 'LOL'. He died a second time when he tried to reclaim his corpse. Revenge is sweet.

Level 7 Enchanter, Playtime = 1 Day, 5.5 hours

[Servitus @IAmServitus]

So far, I have died 5 times. Each death has been a painful lesson and I am doing my best to limit these failures. As I play, providing I have privacy, I loop Goddess Vailen's 'Loser Reprogramming' clips through my headphones. This keeps me focused on developing myself for her.

[Servitus @IAmServitus]

I will post each of my deaths here on this X feed, as well as a brief explanation of how it happened, my level, and my accumilated playtime. I am excited to see how much time I can devote to her, and am happy to share it with others.

[Servitus @IAmServitus]

Each time I die, or 'restart' as Goddess Vailen prefers, I pay her a $10 tribute. This is to both punish my carelessness and to show my respect and appreciation to her for allowing me to use her name.

[Servitus @IAmServitus]

This is an extremely punishing restriction, as this game is modelled after the original EverQuest from 1999 and is a group oriented game. When you die, you drop all equipment, spells, lose 10% EXP, and have to run back to your corpse to reclaim.

[Servitus @IAmServitus]

On September 27, I made my first payment to the Pussy-Free Tax Office. It wasn't much, I know, but I believe this is a marathon and not a sprint. I know I will never finish making up for the mistakes of my past, but this is a step in the right direction.

https://t.co/nGwFQerOqf

[Servitus @IAmServitus]

For the last 2 weeks since I've discovered my place in the 'House of Humiliation', I have been listening to the teachings of Goddess Vailen. What started as harmless clip purchase ended up turning my life around, in the best way possible.

[Servitus @IAmServitus]

I wish to chronicle my journey toward Loserdom here for all to see, and I have Goddess Vailen to thank for this change in my life. As you can see, I scored somewhat poorly on my Pussy-Free Assessment, and I still struggle with having too much confidence and high self-esteem.

[Servitus @IAmServitus]

@houseofhumil I am ashamed to say that I've scored lower than average, but I am doing my best to correct this issue. I listen to Goddess Vailen daily and I know her words have begun to spark a change in me. Given time, I know I can improve my score.