Ian Rapko

President @umassblockchain | Prev @SecureDAO

Just trying to make it out

[Ian Rapko @IanRapko]

Day 1

Went skiing today, was good to not be stuck on getting rejected by my last internship I was waiting on. Recently I’m realizing how much of a waste me trading really was, and how much of a setback it brought me not just financially but mentally. I’ve had a complete change in how I set goals, create things, and learn since this last cycle, and it’s all just me trying to rush through and skip the hard parts of any task I set my mind to. It also doesn’t help that I lost more money than I realized I truly owned, and that’s another mental battle I’m going to have to face head on.

Between that and school it’s been a rough year to say the least. Hours of time I could have spent socializing or learning new skills were put into trading losing multiple sol every single day. I didn’t apply myself fully and instead just let myself fall into the same trap that paralyzed me in 2022.

I also found out how much I’ve started to leech off of people, where I used to be a leader in the sense that I enjoyed building on my own, and would find out and learn everything myself, I now need someone to guide me. Collaboration is great, but I can’t get anywhere on my own anymore and it sucks truly.

Right now my goals are to just finish this semester. I want to add something with a personal project of some sort or learn some new skills but in reality I should take it one step at a time. Making a llm-generated portfolio website isn’t going to get me any further in life, and constantly relying on chatbots actually makes me take steps back. Eventually I’ll be at the point where I can use these things to get me further in my development but I can’t skip steps, especially now realizing this after failing all four of my technical interviews.

I have everything else set, soft skills, resume etc. but my coding and knowledge isn’t there to show for it.

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Gonna try to journal here every day on this thread.

Got cooked on internships so I ended up making a twitter account, gonna post daily thoughts and anything I think is worthwhile

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Bouta become the next yacine just watch

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I honestly don't know a fix either, just something that has constantly held me down for the past 5 years.

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How are people able to see issues in the bigger picture

I have blown up amounts of money I still can't really comprehend by just trying to flip for short term profits, and panicking anytime I saw red.

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This doesn't just involve crypto though, for school and programming I face similar issues, not seeing the big picture and getting myself caught in the now. Ending up cheating or using some chatbot instead of learning.

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@letdylcook @elitetakes_ + barkley looks great

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@PhillyPG_ @Embiid21Szn

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@beforeblazer how did you start?

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@ShamsCharania STEAL OF THE DRAFT

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@wojespn @CAA_Basketball LMAOO HE ROBBED THEM

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@ramonashelburne @wojespn That’s why he is the goat

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@DeanScorpion_ @malika_andrews Agreed

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@wojespn Shams beat you

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@ShamsCharania @TheAthletic @Stadium Sixers please sign him

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@Sixers_Matt People just gotta respect good basketball

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@AdamSchefter @wojespn Schefter Redemption?????!!!?!!

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@BallsackSports Ofc he didn't run from the grind 😑