Dear NEM Today I move to Philadelphia, under a quick decision unfortunately. the opportunity was there under bad circumstances and I had to take the offer that could change my life for the better. Sorry to abruptly just leave but it was either this or continue to spiral 1/?
Be productive. Oops panic attack... Be productive, oops overthinking things I can't control..... Be productive oops brake down for the rest of the day.
I went into the forest and just SCREAMED as loud as I could. It only felt good until I got back home and started thinking again. I wish I had sound proof box I could go into.
She's gone. But I'll wait alone forever because of what I did. I don't deserve anything never did never will. I treated her like she would never leave and she did. 6 years poof because of me. She will be happy I'm happy for her but it still hurts.
For anyone wondering I'm ok and I appreciate everyone, she is an extremely good person. I didn't know what I had till I lost it but I'm working through it I promise I'm good. Sorry for the crazy talk, hurting myself emotionally never physically I wouldn't hurt you guys