@KotoneCutscenes I played through this game once with the femc mod, and with this in the works it looks like I'm gonna be playing through it again, this already looks great! ❤️
Yorhel has passed away
He was known for running vndb, a website he created back in 2007
The moderation team is working to preserve the website but cannot provide details at the moment
@yoibunesu This is a beautiful arrangment of this, but I also can't help but feel a little on edge listening to it, as though somethings just a little...off, feels kinda dangerous 😂
I said this four years ago and almost forgot about it. I needed to remind myself this today. Mental health is looking grim all over, chat. Reach out for help if you need it. ❤
(sappy deep post incoming sorry it long readyGO--)
There are some experiences in life that really do come in waves.
I've made so many wonderful friends in the past year that have made such a positive impact on my life, that gave me back a hope I had stripped away from me and gave up on having back.
As I exist in this space to continue fighting for the dreams that I have, I do often see things in this space that bring up the old feelings of sadness, disappointment, spite, and asking, why me? Why just me. Because my situation was so isolated, and I knew so much that I still to this day can't directly share, it's so hard for others to understand how bad, how lonely, and how much an effect what happened to me, and what choices those around me made, still has on my life even years later. As long as I'm in this space, I won't be allowed to forget.
But, I'm so much stronger now because of the friends I now have and the community that we have. We have one of the strongest communities out there, connected by our perserverance and strength to show we can overcome anything.
I got used to looking at everything that happened as my fault. Because I'm unwanted, never enough, and undeserving.
Yet, I've made friends that told me, that they are proud that I'm still here, that look up to me because I still kept trying even if I didn't know how. People that told me that I was insanely unlucky, that I was taken advantage of, and made a scapegoat out of.
I had few people to tell me that before. And I know it can't save all the mistakes and struggling I sadly ended up doing in front of all of you when I first returned. Maybe if I had been stronger or had all this back then, I wouldn't have ruined my own chances to be more successful and give back to you all in the way you deserve.
Despite wishing I could take things back or redo them better, I can't and it hurts me inside some days, knowing I've let many of you out there down too.
I'm sorry if I did. I hope I can make it up to you, as I am still figuring out what my style is too.
But you're all so powerful. Because of you, I still have the insane happiness I do now. I feel very lucky, I tell my friends that all the time now, and mean it. I haven't felt depressed in 8 months. I feel small, creative ideas come up randomly in my head in day to day life, that hasn't happened in 2 years.
The world around me is healing somewhat as well. Good things that could've happened, are being given a chance to happen to me again. I feel hope that not everything is lost to me anymore. And that's a simple dream I've wished for, for so long. It sounds simple to just want the chance to talk things out with people but, the world is a cruel and unfair place that hides the truth on the outside.
Sorry for the long post. I felt there was a lot I wanted to say now that I'm genuinely able to be someone I'm proud to be, that I can give back to everyone around me with.🩵
Thank you so much everyone.