iHavoks

Bit of a weeb, gamer, watcher of streams. 🐰💖

[iHavoks @iHavoks]

@PemaMysterious So glad to see it god funded sweetie! You deserve the world, and you deserve to be happy! Love you sweetheart!🥰🫂

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@PemaMysterious Im sorry you had to back out sweetie. Next time for sure!

Hope you are doing okay Pema!🫂🫂

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@PemaMysterious Sorry i missed it sweetie. Good to see you back, and will always do what i can for you! Love you lots Pema!🫂

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Just not being able to do anything for them bothers me so much. I want to make those I care about feel happy, but I've been having such a hard time lately, i just feel like a complete failure...

[iHavoks @iHavoks]

So much running in my head lately. I've been dealing with more and more stress at work, with longer days, and more drama, along with an increase in pain i am dealing with.

And on top of it all, just feeling like I have been a failure to the people i care about.

[🐰💖 Pema - #VTuber! @PemaMysterious]

I miss you all so much 🥹💖

I still haven't had much to say for progress, and on some days the pain is so bad I can barely use my hands on top of not being able to get much use out of my legs.

Needless to say, the bed is still holding me captive for the most part.

Unfortunately, I can’t see a specialist for an until November unless I pay about a grand upfront for private insurance... which is just ridiculous and cruel. But that's the system. So we just have to wait until then.

It’s a really tough ask, but in the meantime, if you’re able to help me get through this rough patch with basic living expenses, it would mean the world to me and help me hold my head over water for now.

[iHavoks @iHavoks]

@PemaOblivious Honey, it's okay. Let it out. Always here to listen, okay?🫂

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@PemaOblivious You are NOT irrelevant honey! You are loved so much, and I will do my best to help where I can, okay? I love you Pema, and please dont give up!🫂🫂

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@PemaMysterious At the very least, I'm so glad that you did not have a deep tissue infection Pema. I always want you to know that you are loved so very much, and I wish I could give you the warmest and most loving of hugs right now. You are strong honey, keep your head held high, okay sweetie?

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@PemaMysterious Wouldn't miss it for anything Pema. Feel better soon honey!🫂🫂

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@PemaMysterious I love you Pema, I am cheering for you, and praying for you to get your strength back, and to recover fully!

Always here to lend an ear for you sweetie, no matter what!

[iHavoks @iHavoks]

@soriuwuofficial Oh dear. I hope that you can get ot reported and taken care of easily! So sorry to hear this happened to you!

[iHavoks @iHavoks]

Im trying to rest, and I guess it's another night of my own thoughts being terrible to me. I feel like I am a failure to the people I love and care about, and I feel like im not good enough for my friends... i want to be happy, but I don't think I get what I really want...

[iHavoks @iHavoks]

All I want is to have at least a month with no stupid work drama, and I wish to spend time with the people I love and care about...

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Been dealing with a lot of drama at work again lately. When one coworker brings everyone down by half assing their work, and actively insulting myself and others when any legitimate concerns are brought up about him, it makes for a miserable time at work.

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@PemaLEWD You are a Trifecta though, as you are funny, horny and a true beauty! Love you Pema!🥰

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@PemaMysterious Love you Pema! And you deserve so much and to be happy sweetheart!🥰

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And as if it were the mood of the day, it also stormed pretty hard here. Just not the best day all around I guess?

[iHavoks @iHavoks]

I don't know what it is about today, but I've had no energy whatsoever, plus I have felt like I'm nothing but a bother to my own family, friends, and the people I love.

I feel like I'm a failure that's going to be cast aside for someone else, and I just want to curl back up

[iHavoks @iHavoks]

in my bed and not get back out. I hate these bad days, especially since they're getting to be more frequent...