I hate women who are Enablers of patriarchal institutions like marriage, why does it matter if he didn't want to marry you? Marriage is nothing but a method to oppress women and make them into a unpaid labourer, you can do better, lady
My theory about past relationships is this: start accepting 3–5 exes, 5–8 FWBs, a body count of 5–8, and 1–2 abortions as the new normal. Otherwise, you’ll spend your whole life being delusional, thinking they never had any past relationships. And when you eventually find out about their exes or FWBs, you’ll have no option but to cope harder and maybe even cry, feel cheated, or end up devastated.