I Am Not Sure I Can

Just a girl. An only child. Dealing with a dad with stage 4 cancer.

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I got a wakeup call that my dad was ER bound in an ambulance. Upon arrival I was told about them using the paddles on him, his kidney failure, & sepsis. They still don't know what is going on and my dad is in the ICU. I just hope I can sleep. #cancer #fcancer #cancersucks

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When you can't watch your favorite TV show because a main character's mom is dying from the same cancer as your dad. Back to watching stupid stuff. #cancer #fcancer #cancersucks #lungcancer #lifewithcancer

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And the hits just keep on coming. What started as just lab work has turned into a doctor's visit. They are worried about how things are going. We aren't even a week into this treatment. F*$k. #cancer #fcancer #cancersucks #lungcancer #lifewithcancer

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Loving that my dad & I have the @amazon @alexa99 show, so that dad & I can 'see' each other every day. 🧡 #cancer #fcancer #cancersucks #lungcancer #lifewithcancer

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Ending the weekend with your neighbors throwing a party in their front yard, with loud music and tons of loud people, that is still going at 10:10 PM - not cool man, not cool.

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When treatment is a hail Mary it's hard to know what to think of the side effects. Are they worth it or not? What is worth putting up with? #cancer #fcancer #cancersucks #lungcancer #lifewithcancer

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Whoever said God will never give you more than you can handle is full of it. Either that, or God has a WHOLE lot more faith in me than she should. #cancer #fcancer #cancersucks #lungcancer #lifewithcancer

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Last week (Mon-Fri), I powered through at least 3 bottles of wine & 3 cocktails. This week I only had 2 beers. 😁 Do I feel better? Not sure. Am I sleeping better? Meh. Was it a good idea? Probably.
#cancer #fuckcancer #cancersucks

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Yesterday was so stressful I could barely function. Waiting all afternoon for test results that could be life changing. Again. This time it turned out okay. But what about next time?
#cancer #fcancer #cancersucks #lungcancer #lifewithcancer