Facts about me: I cut myself, I starve myself, I b/p, I had tried killing myself but failed many times, my dream is to loose 5kg so i don't fall again when I hang myself up (shit got me coughing and I almost broke my bones), my BMI is 18.1 but still I wanna be thin and more
I harm myself by cutting, pinching, burning, bashing my head against the wall, punching myself, pulling my hair out, biting myself, choking myself, taking random pills, intentional vomiting, drowning, stabbing myself with a pen, starving, stabbing myself with a needle and more
Also my mother's cousin tried to killed me when I was a child cause I was playing with her kid and she was such a bitch that she pushed me and I pushed her back and her mom saw, took an axe and tried to hit me with it, I hid in a closet for hours until my mom arrived and theyleft
I gained body dysmorphia at the age of 11 cause everyone keeps saying I'm fat, it's cause had problems with bingeing and I still have, but now I'm bulimic cause I fucking hate myself, I feel so fucking ugly oh shit kill me
Oh right, my mom tried to kill me several times, she almost got me when I was still a baby, goddamnit she had one job and she didn't do it right (she tried to stab me to death but my aunt got in and stopped her) also she still keeps threatening me everyday and pulling my hair
Also I've been abused verbally, physically, sexually as a child and I still carry every bit of memories, I tried running away back then but I have nowhere else to go so I went to my other grandma's house but she took me back home the next day
My mom quit her job and my real dad is in prison cause he's a drug addict and he assaulted a girl (serves his ass right), my stepdad provides for us, and everyone else in the house yells at me everyday cause they're bitches and they don't respect me as a person
I don't have friends in real life, I mean I do have but they're douchebags, they only talk to me whenever they want something from me and we don't really hang out like bestfriends, we just kinda like know each other, I have like 3 friends online, we're not close