indie🐈‍⬛ relapsing hardcore (7/12.5kg)

─ .✦ 23 (02) 176cm ✦. ─ an-r ─ .✦ lbmi 13.2 (40.9kg) hbmi 20.8 ─ .✦ cw bmi 18.4 (56.9kg)🐷 ✦. ─ gw 52kg, ugw 50kg ✦. — non edtwt dni

[indie🐈‍⬛ relapsing hardcore (7/12.5kg) @indiezero]

unpinning when I reach my gw! (5.5 more kgs to go)

[indie🐈‍⬛ relapsing hardcore (7/12.5kg) @indiezero]

5/06

rounded up to 1100cal intake
1,115 active cals burnt by 10:40pm
20k steps
7 glasses water I think

[indie🐈‍⬛ relapsing hardcore (7/12.5kg) @indiezero]

unpinning when I reach my gw! (5.5 more kgs to go)

[indie🐈‍⬛ relapsing hardcore (7/12.5kg) @indiezero]

4/06

if I lived alone I’d do this every day

estimated 720cal intake
1,189 active cals burnt by 9:40pm
24.2k steps
7 glasses? water

[indie🐈‍⬛ relapsing hardcore (7/12.5kg) @indiezero]

new lock in idea: just burning off all my intake each day except metab day

[indie🐈‍⬛ relapsing hardcore (7/12.5kg) @indiezero]

burnt off all my intake and 20k steps🙏

[zem ❀ @kcalzsa]

Nobody talks about how when you starve yourself you become a total bitch like holy fuck I’m so mean and unlikable just because I’m starving myself and I can’t handle it

[indie🐈‍⬛ relapsing hardcore (7/12.5kg) @indiezero]

my gf has been having a really hard time with her new work and is missing her dad sm bc he lives in china, idk how to help her :( I want to treat her to dinner tomorrow or buy her some flowers idk

[⟢ seora @eatingseomuch]

im genuinely terrified of influencing my friends w my ed

[indie🐈‍⬛ relapsing hardcore (7/12.5kg) @indiezero]

@lesbianpusheen 😍

[indie🐈‍⬛ relapsing hardcore (7/12.5kg) @indiezero]

also my weight distribution fucking up in recovery made me want to relapse tbh

[indie🐈‍⬛ relapsing hardcore (7/12.5kg) @indiezero]

I also can’t ‘recover’ until I get to like 50kg bc I’m way too big rn lol

[indie🐈‍⬛ relapsing hardcore (7/12.5kg) @indiezero]

I want to be normal for my gf but I fear I’m destined to starve myself and be addicted to exercise

[cassie 🧃🧃 @thepinkhour]

i never use ai to count my cals, when in doubt my go-to is neurodivergent redditors 🫡

[indie🐈‍⬛ relapsing hardcore (7/12.5kg) @indiezero]

if ur also from my tiktok and found me here im sorry I know I failed massively like I had one job HAHA

[indie🐈‍⬛ relapsing hardcore (7/12.5kg) @indiezero]

I just sat down for literally 5 hours and I want to die so I’m gonna walk for half an hour

[indie🐈‍⬛ relapsing hardcore (7/12.5kg) @indiezero]

And it’s funny I relapsed bc there’s no real reason to? Like uni is good and I have a gf. I just hate my body and I want to look nice in clothes

[indie🐈‍⬛ relapsing hardcore (7/12.5kg) @indiezero]

I feel like I wasted recovery relapsing like I was literally basically fully recovered but I just felt like I had to go back

[indie🐈‍⬛ relapsing hardcore (7/12.5kg) @indiezero]

I know people are gonna find me if I post my face on here but I really don’t give a shit bc if you’re on edtwt too that’s also bad

[indie🐈‍⬛ relapsing hardcore (7/12.5kg) @indiezero]

help someone from tiktok saw me on edtwt girl what are you doing here anyway?

[indie🐈‍⬛ relapsing hardcore (7/12.5kg) @indiezero]

forcing myself to eat over 1100cals today bc I’m burning 1000 and I wanna sleep well

[indie🐈‍⬛ relapsing hardcore (7/12.5kg) @indiezero]

@maybellinaa it’s from a matcha box!!

[indie🐈‍⬛ relapsing hardcore (7/12.5kg) @indiezero]

my legs are just built so ugly bruh

[indie🐈‍⬛ relapsing hardcore (7/12.5kg) @indiezero]

accidentally saw my gf’s exercise stats and saw she burnt 1000-1200cals 2 days which triggered me…I don’t wanna get competitive. But she works a really active job and goes to the gym after, she eats well tho