TTC after Loss

4yrs TTC.
Lost Baby Girl (20wks)💔.
IVF Journey
Losing My Mind & Hope Along The Way

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@HannahBinBags I ended up collapsing and being taken to hospital with ruptured ectopic pregnancy. I guess when I posted this I really wanted to believe everything was OK. Just recovering from surgery now. So sick of this journey but thank you for your comment xxx

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@magsdabomb Ahh thanks for sharing xx

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@acaciabluebell Thank you x

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@myspace43971957 Congratulations to you all ❤️ what an absolute stunner. Glad you're all OK and through the other side xx

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Today my last frozen embryo failed to recover from the thawing process. Today, instead of a transfer, I had mimosas for breakfast, husband and I went to a spa, and we finished a bottle of red I won the other month. My version of self-care. Infertility is too exhausting otherwise.

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Follow up appt from my IVF in October been cancelled and pushed back multiple times. I feel like my frozen embryo has been taken hostage.... sick of waiting now.

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@IVFingAround Congratulations xx

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Diagnosed with chronic depression. Embarassed. Sick of this journey. Sick of work. Sick of work blaming my fertility journey on my reaction to a very stressful job. Just a few of my thoughts today. I want to finish work and go to bed.

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@acaciabluebell @myloveourivf I have my fingers crossed you get it this side of Christmas but just take the time to enjoy yourself xx

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@myloveourivf @acaciabluebell On the nhs you have to be within a certain BMI to be funded. So either under or over. So weight can be a scary thing. @acaciabluebell I think you should be fine. You're in the process already. Fingers 🤞🏻. X

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@acaciabluebell Best advice I had was avoid stress. There are so many things you should & shouldnt do in terms of nutrition but if you obsess and stress over it you'll outweigh the minimal benefit it has. So basically don't focus on avoiding. Focus on self care.
However here I am with no baby...

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Bad news friday night. Little embryo didn't stick sigh. Had a big glass of red. One of many probably. Break needed until after Christmas. I'm exhausted.

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What cannot be said will be wept.
-Sappho

#pregnancyloss #miscarriage #stillbirth #infantloss

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@loopylou1000 Thanks. They called me in to take my bloods. They've said its inconclusive, ie not definitely negative but will take my bloods on Friday to see which way it's going x

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Faint but Positive test Monday. Repeated this morning. Fainter. I'm absolutely gutted.

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@myloveourivf @ttcbabyH Fingers crossed for you both. 4 is an amazing number to have x

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@myloveourivf @ttcbabyH Only if you hit certain criteria and depending on where you live too but even then its a limited amount of tries. (It's not standard). Still a good chunk of people in UK have to go private and pay. Having said that yes the NHS is generally amazing x

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@AnthrInfertile 🖤 xx

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Brownish spotting 10days post transfer. I'm so anxious. Can I still be hopeful?!

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@myspace43971957 Thank you so much 💓 x

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@myspace43971957 Still using progesterone. Cramping and spotting. I did end up taking a test so that by wednesday i could determine which way it was going... and it was a very faint line. But could be tailing off... who knows it's all terrifying. X