fuck it

I like to think I’m a positive person

[fuck it @Irlyjustcannot]

Judgement is my slow silent death. Knowing no one could truly accept me for 100% of who I am

[fuck it @Irlyjustcannot]

I know the answer is God but I still feel so empty

[fuck it @Irlyjustcannot]

I don’t know who to turn to for help anymore

[fuck it @Irlyjustcannot]

I think I can get people to either understand me OR accept me. Not both

[fuck it @Irlyjustcannot]

Please whoever finds this one day don’t let my mom see any of it

[fuck it @Irlyjustcannot]

If I ever die and someone finds this twitter - I’m sorry mom I know seeing any of this would break your heart. I’m sorry

[fuck it @Irlyjustcannot]

Can’t a bitch catch a break

[fuck it @Irlyjustcannot]

Do you remember when you joined X? I don’t remember doing it on my birthday 4 years ago! #MyXAnniversary

[fuck it @Irlyjustcannot]

It’s funny that I only resist hurting myself because I know that anyone who finds out will think I’m doing it for attention lol

[fuck it @Irlyjustcannot]

I try to figure out what benefit I give to my loved ones and I genuinely don’t think there’s much. Like ofc I wouldn’t want them to blame themselves or feel loss if I took myself out but if I could just disappear from all of their memories I do think they might be better off

[fuck it @Irlyjustcannot]

If I ever die and someone finds this twitter - I’m sorry mom I know seeing any of this would break your heart. I’m sorry

[fuck it @Irlyjustcannot]

I feel like I’m 100 miles underground with barely enough oxygen to breathe

[fuck it @Irlyjustcannot]

It sounds so dramatic that anyone I say this shit to does NOT take me seriously

[fuck it @Irlyjustcannot]

Everyone posts about their goals and mines like

☑️ don’t kill yourself

[fuck it @Irlyjustcannot]

Why do I bend over and take all this shit

[fuck it @Irlyjustcannot]

I feel trapped

[fuck it @Irlyjustcannot]

What do I do

[fuck it @Irlyjustcannot]

I’m a fucking failure

[fuck it @Irlyjustcannot]

I need a therapist so badly and absolutely cannot afford it rn lol America

[fuck it @Irlyjustcannot]

I’m too much of a pussy to die honestly

[fuck it @Irlyjustcannot]

No matter what I do the people I love will see through it and know I’m horrible

[fuck it @Irlyjustcannot]

Am I meant to be alone forever because maybe I should be dead