✨ 𝓐𝓻𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓬 ✨

she/her - 🏳️‍🌈 - 21 - Artist - mostly into League, genshin, bg3 and hsr

[✨ 𝓐𝓻𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓬 ✨ @Ironixable]

Redoing my pinned <3

★ My name is Hayley or Arctic

★ i’m 20!

★ I play val, lol, genshin, hsr, apex, bg3, hsr and r6!

★ I schzoid tweet :D

★ some of my fav characters are kafka, dehya, wrio, arlecchino, astarion,

★ i stream (link in bio) and draw too <33

[✨ 𝓐𝓻𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓬 ✨ @Ironixable]

I just don’t understand how everyone but me is allowed to be happy, i want to know wtf i did to deserve all of this man

[✨ 𝓐𝓻𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓬 ✨ @Ironixable]

I’ve genuinely been upset and anxious because it pains me so bad i cannot say anything about how i’ve been feeling

[✨ 𝓐𝓻𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓬 ✨ @Ironixable]

Honestly i think at this point i just don’t wanna exist no more, i just hate myself snd the way I’ve been feeling recently

[✨ 𝓐𝓻𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓬 ✨ @Ironixable]

I don’t deserve nice things

[✨ 𝓐𝓻𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓬 ✨ @Ironixable]

I wish i was just normal so i could figure out my emotions on my own and not have to suffer with constant anxiety from perma having thoughts n not knowing what they mean or how I’m supposed to feel

[✨ 𝓐𝓻𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓬 ✨ @Ironixable]

I really hate the way i’ve been feeling these past few days but it’s genuinely something i cannot talk with anyone and i don’t even know how to go about talking about it with my therapist. But i feel like i really need someone to help me figure out my emotions and feelings

[✨ 𝓐𝓻𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓬 ✨ @Ironixable]

I just wanna throw up man, why do i constantly get reminders of how shi everything is when i need to be distracted.

[✨ 𝓐𝓻𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓬 ✨ @Ironixable]

This anxiety episode sucks i dunno why i’m having consistent feelings of anxiety, i genuinely hate this feeling so much

[✨ 𝓐𝓻𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓬 ✨ @Ironixable]

It’s sucks always feeling tossed to the side because i’ve never been wanted.

[✨ 𝓐𝓻𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓬 ✨ @Ironixable]

I hate the way i feel right now.

[✨ 𝓐𝓻𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓬 ✨ @Ironixable]

Tryna fall asleep after feeling like ahh the whole day sucks man

[✨ 𝓐𝓻𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓬 ✨ @Ironixable]

I yearn for the day i feel seen and understood

[✨ 𝓐𝓻𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓬 ✨ @Ironixable]

Life becoming so unbearable that none of the things i’ve done before is working to make me feel better so imma make food in hopes i might feel a bit better, thank god I’m talking to my therapist tomorrow.

[✨ 𝓐𝓻𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓬 ✨ @Ironixable]

I’m also just feeling unloved these days and kinda like a throwaway since i feel perma tosses to the side

[✨ 𝓐𝓻𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓬 ✨ @Ironixable]

I need a hug man, i’ve been so anxious today i’ve wrapped myself in my blanket to feel some kind of hug so i can regulate my nervous system

[✨ 𝓐𝓻𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓬 ✨ @Ironixable]

I feel like i just make everyone feel guility for me man, i want to be happy for real just once

[✨ 𝓐𝓻𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓬 ✨ @Ironixable]

I wanna grind ranked rivals, it sucks i gotta do it on my own since i suck at the game even tho i play everyday for hours.

[✨ 𝓐𝓻𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓬 ✨ @Ironixable]

I dunno i’m just perms picked over n i kinda just feel like everyones last choice.

[✨ 𝓐𝓻𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓬 ✨ @Ironixable]

I’ve just been feeling like recently i’ve had to ask a lot to play with people instead of the opposite and it just makes me feel like people would rather not play with me. I think people don’t understand how much it drains my social battery to ask, but it is a lot for me.

[✨ 𝓐𝓻𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓬 ✨ @Ironixable]

I wonder if imm just going through some extreme autistic burnout because i’ve really pushed myself outside my comfort zone the last few weeks and have been only social so i wonder if im feeling this way from that