I wanna work on music but still feel a wittle sick which is a terrible combo
I’m shackled to my physical cage while my spirit begs to soar yet snaps back just as it’s about to
i wanted to tell you how we made the visuals for nerve-bloom
i did it with Natalia Kleszczewska and Natalie Liu .
Natalia Kleszczewska is a painter , she painted the creatures and the backgrounds .
Natalie Liu is a computer graphics director , she shaped the digital dimension of the work .
my role in it was a creative director , bringing in the singer-songwriter tradition , where emotionally precise things happen inside the structure of a song . i guided colour pallettes , textures and the environments the music happens in .
to make this possible , during the process , natalia often had to paint many shapes and sizes , different textures and layers of colours . natalie then developed the visuals, designing and overseeing CGI elements , and finding ways for the digital to sit organically alongside Natalia’s world . and include my dramaturgy and creative direction.
we spent 7 months talking and working together , dedicated to relish in the craft of blending hand-made visuals with digital experimentation , 3D design and commit it to physical display technology . a lot of time was spent on researching different tools and techniques to find what worked best at each stage in the song .
like i’ve done before , i wanted to merge old things with tech , giving it soul & a meaning .
to paint a painting is an analog craft but computer programming is craftmanship too !! and both can co-exist ,
.....encouraging each other to bloom even further towards a mutual world .
there is a tradition in pop music for the mucisian to choose a video director . in the art world , this is called “curation” , but where we came from , it was natural that the musician would have strong opinions on what your song needed , which mood , colours , textures & storyline . today this is called “creative director” and it is something we didn’t credit ourselves with in the 90s , but i am starting to understand this better now .
i don´t think of me as a visual artist . because my heart is music . everything i do comes from a sonic point of view .
this is something i have called “sonic symbolism” , sound made visual , a reverse synesthesia .
when you listen to a song for the first time , it is like swallowing a whale , you need to feel the whole musical sculpture in one go .
the structure of a song has always been extremely important to me : what shape it is .
this is part of the craft of being a singer-songwriter
........... we are tune sculpturors .......
since i am talking about the visuals for nerve bloom it is impossible to not mention the avatars in my music videos .
they have replaced the storyteller with anattempt to connect to the more universal element of music , through animation, avatars , puppetry both digital and analog .
for me they are marionettes in a puppet-theatre , hopefully in a similar realm as the jungian archetypes
( which we all can act out the characteristics of ...)
.... i feel nerve-bloom is a natural continuation ....
an animated avatar archetype
singing you a song
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Avatars, animation and archetypes: Nerve Bloom (remix) – on display at Listasafn Íslands / National Gallery of Iceland until September 20th 2026.
The production of this film was made possible with the generous support of #bottegaveneta.
Israeli soldiers forced a Palestinian child to pose for a photograph with a Palestinian flag and placed a weapon in front of him while taking the photo during a raid on Beit Ummar, north of Al-Khalil. West Bank.
My boyfriend and I are perfectly compatible in every way except what type of place we thrive living in
He was dying isolated in the suburbs but I’m an anxious hot mess in the city
Can love conquer all?
Stay tuned….
Super cute guy came into work and I thought he was straight but then we started eye f*cking and I was like oh shit???
and now I need to text him but that’s not ok lmaooo
pls help im in heat he was so fine oh my gawd
my community loving sweet pea angel @kadyrain was failed by US healthcare and hospitalized four times in four months
any support for her appreshiatedses
(this is a pride event she threw a couple years back it was amaze)
gfm below
If you haven’t seen either versions of the Sex Icon music video w/ @OddlyYvie and I, what are you doing?! 😱
Find the censored version here 👉 https://t.co/JcNPJ11kbO
Find the uncensored version here 👉 https://t.co/SGhaZJbyWB
Filmed, edited, & directed by @catalinstelian
i hate how pop music doesnt do interesting shit anymore. where's the key changes. where's the weird dissonant chords. where's the ritardandos and accelerandos. where's literally anything that isn't diatonic chords in 4/4 at a stable tempo.
Kind of into discourse again like yessss let’s have the same convo repeatedly I wanna know why youre stuck on it who hurt you and why do you care
let’s figure out what you need to give less fucks
just learned the Armenian Proverb of:
ՈՒշ լինի - Անուշ լինի
Ush lini - Anush lini
Let it be late, let it be good
and I’m like yeah I needed that thanks ancestors
you guys why am I only feeling attractive now for the first time in my life lol
also I love seeing the telltale aging signs I love getting older thank you god
i’ve been thinking of what could even be said about such a tragedy. someone said it best that trans people are “born so late and die so young”. we uproot our lives and transition and live more life than anyone else ever does and society punishes us for it. we deserve better