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One at a time… stay in control

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Proud of myself for taking some real steps of preserving my wellbeing with therapy. As much as it isn’t cheap, it’ll be worth it in the long run

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If it’s meant to be, it will be

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Feels like I could really die inside already so I keep distracting myself with other productive things but the feelings always remain. I’ll never know if I’ll ever get a chance again but I guess time will only tell. I wonder what’ll happen

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Wanna share my days with you
Wanna be with you
Wanna feel you
Don’t know if I’ll ever get to have you again
Even if I know that I have to accept life and move on
I can’t and I don’t think I ever properly will

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Dreaming

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I have to do so much, but I have to be grateful that I get to do so much

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Learning a bit more everyday, thankful that I’m getting to live this life. Slowly but surely, things will start going the way I want them to

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Starting to trust my gut more and more

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My definition of self-love would be doing what I need to do even when I don’t want to

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Wanting to be able to express the sounds that I hear and feel visually to anyone watching - all while displaying clean form, speed changes, smooth flow, and level changes

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If you don’t enjoy your work, it’s fine to do something repetitive so that you maximize on joy from your personal life. But if you enjoy your work, whether it’s constantly changing or not, it doesn’t alter the joy you feel in your personal life; it just adds onto it

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Loving someone so much that it hurts

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Loving you from afar has me confronting challenges head on as I repair my past wounds, soothe my own insecurities, and continue fortifying my strengths. As much pain as I may be dealing with, I am also grateful for the opportunity to heal myself and grow into a better man

[gnajnoweaj @J1_Jang]

I may be a work in progress but I’ll eventually secure something promising for myself back home. I’ll need some time but I hope everything falls into place - just like I’d want

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No matter what I choose or do, I can’t please everyone - especially my family. So I’ve just gotta devise, commit, and stick to a plan. In the end, they’re worried for my best interest, but I just have to prove that I’m fine and that I’m happy

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That (possible) internship could really push me beyond my fullest capacity and really help my decision-making, multitasking, and communication - skills which aren’t exactly my strengths. So this could be a great challenge for myself; to grow both as a professional and individual

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I already told a friend of mine that I’d compete and that I’d see him there. Plus, most importantly, I’m trying to not succumb to my anxieties nowadays cuz I’m trying to prioritize myself first instead of surrendering myself to my responsibilities - in lieu of my happiness (4)

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I was hesitating on buying the train tickets so much thinking that I’ve already spent so much money after going on vacation with my sister and cuz I literally haven’t trained at all (3)

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Buuuut I really wanna give myself some credit cuz I followed through with buying some train tickets (which are expensive af - thanks Switzerland) to compete at an event 3 hours away from me!! (2)