People who can watch someone help them every single day and never feel the need to even offer some reciprocation are scary man. I dodge you guys like the plague.
No one wants to hear this but sometimes it’s your fault. Your life isn’t good and it’s your fault. You made bad decisions/ choices and sadly, these are the consequences of your actions.
After a master’s, don’t go for a PhD just because of your job. Don’t spend years of your life researching, writing, defending, and sacrificing your peace for a degree you don’t need. A PhD is not the next step for everyone. Sometimes, knowing when to stop is the smarter decision.